her pic is me just getting for surgery. Honest to God I've never had a worse January
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This will be my 29th surgery during my career. 11 just on my knees. I took the whole "go hard or go home" thing to the extreme. I love to train and I love to train as hard as humanly possible. I read on Facebook people saying they train all out every workout all the time. Few do but most do not have a clue. Anyone who knows me or has trained with me will vouch for my intensity/insanity.
My whole life all I've heard is "someday you're going to have to pay big consequences for the insane way you're living your life"
They were right! These past 4 years have been the most difficult years of my life. So many surgeries, going from a no worries income to a check to check income, being trapped in the state of Ohio where not only is the state **** but every time I spit there's a cop waiting to cuff me and put me in jail. So far I've been able for the most part make the best of things. This January has been so devastating to my mind body and soul that I can't even share the thoughts that have been going through my mind. January torn rotator cuff, broken elbow, having to pull my kids out of their favorite sport, wrestling because Jackson Township Ohio thinks they are LA. When in reality I live in a town with a school that is filled with a bunch of fat ass redneck hillbilly bullies. My boys wrestling coach thinks he's George St.Pierre and tried to bully my kids and my self. The big bully won and I pulled the kids from the team. They were really sad. This was followed with my youngest brother taking his own life and my poor old mom found him strangled in medical cords that were attached to his bed. She has a broken heart that I hate hate hate to see her sadness. My whole family is devastated. Then while doing my second set of warm ups on the leg press (700-800lbs) when I felt the all to familiar pop and the knee completely gave out and the weights slammed down to my chest. Went to the ER and no ex rays no nothing just an arrogant towel head who could barley speak English telling me I just strained my quad. Go home and ice it.
2 days later the pain was so bad I went to a completely different ER. Here's a pain shot take some ibuprofen and elevate your leg. Get this..... HE PUT HIS HAND ON MY HAMSTRING AND SAID IT FEELS LIKE YOU MAY HAVE STRAINED YOUR CALF!!!!!! My ****ing calf you stupid ass? And he called security on ME?
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Finally I got into a doctor that had done major surgery on my quad in the past.
I could tell by his eyes this a pretty serious injury but I had no idea what the next couple hours had for me. He drew 100cc of fluid from my knew and when he saw the color he freaked out. Seems a strange combination of strep and staff infection has been building a home under me knee. The took a bunch of blood checked me in the hospital and told me HE(the doctor) WOULD DO EVERYTHING HE COULD TO SAVE MY LEG! Meaning by noon tomorrow I could have lost one of my legs. With everything I've had to deal with this much would be it. If anyone took the time to read this long ass post please know I've done the best I can with my life and if I were asked would you do it all over again my answer would be HELL YES.
Some people may give me quotes about stay positive, stay strong, trust in God or my all time favorite " Dave I know exactly how you're feeling" usually followed with what ever they are going through.
Truth be told none of us know what each of our friends/fans/loved ones have been through. I am tired, I am broken, sad, depressed, and uninspired
I'm laying here on the 29th of January 2014 and know with all I've been fighting for and praying for family friends strangers.... Doing the right thing to the best of my abilities and everything I have loved or cared about either turns to **** or dies. I'm posting this post because I've always shared my true heart with all my friends and fans. I don't just post about my great accomplishments I post as how I really am
This does not make me weak it makes me broken and beaten from fighting so hard for so many things for so many years. What is David Dearth going to do with his life tomorrow ..... That's the million dollar question
Sweet Dream Y'all. Cry me a river.
