You know, on the one hand I feel bad for tbombz. Even if it's not a death sentence, it's still a life-changing diagnosis. I can't imagine what it must be like to get an AIDS diagnosis. Shit, I got a "you're going to need to need a small filling in that premolar Mr. Vxo" and I was moderately distressed.
On the other hand, I find it hard to feel too bad at someone that allows himself to do drugs and, invariably, gets addicted and who then engages in sexual behavior that's so risky that it makes cleaning clogged Mumbai sewers seem like a visit to a health spa, especially when this is accompanied by the sort of arrogant "whatever, I do what I want!" attitude that Taylor displayed on here repeatedly.
The probability that Taylor is changed is, in my opinion, nil and if I didn't want to come across as cruel and insensitive I'd bet that by this time next year, he'll be posting here telling us how a Nobel-winning billionaire firefighting archeologist with Ph.D. degrees in astrology and astronomy who's also a musical prodigy and world-renowned chef is letting him wear a one-of-a-kind animal outfit with an ass flap.
LOL
Be warned; epic novel drug addict life story ahead.
I went through something very similar to tbomz (minus te AIDs and gay prostitution stuff), and it took me years of an uphill struggle to get over it.
After my full blown daily addiction "im doing what i want" middle finger in the air addiction, i went to treatment and soon followed a long up and down of substance changes and sobriety/relapse episodes.... 6 months sober, 1 weeke relapse... then 8 months sober, 1 weekend relapse....
This went on for 2 or 3 years, until i met my wife and got married. Shes vehemently anti drug, as her mother lost herself to drugs in her teenage years and died from an OD. She has been a godsend to me. I wouldnt be sober now if it werent for her.
Upon reflection, my issues stemmed from a controlling parent who never really allowed me to grow up, and my own stubborness and stupidity that drove me to piss her off. This isnt an excuse, but its what kickstarted my behavioral issues as i never was a troubled child growing up.
After i got married, i still would have episodes where id randomly lose control and buy a bag of dope. It took my wife getting pregnant and almost leaving for me to get my shit really straight. If she hadnt packed her shit and ealked out one day, id probably still be struggling.
As it is, ive been years sober and it gets easier everday. I still have moments where the cravings hit, but i dont shake and sweat anymore when it happens, and i dont feel helpless, weak, and unable to contril my own impulses anymore.
I think thats why tbombz found god.... everyone has to find something that they can use as a rock until they get control of their own body and life back. And its really hard when the cravings hit in the beginning if you dont have something that's important enough that you cannot stand the thought of losing it, or failing it/them. After a while you get your self control back and it becomes easier.... but that initial stage is critical.
