She's doing okay for the moment. She has made it clear that she does not want to be on permanent dialysis when that time comes. Her kidneys are failing. Currently, they are at 10%. Along with the kidney failure, her congestive heart failure has worsened. One possible cause of the recent situation with low blood sugar might be pancreatitis. She is strong willed and stubborn. She will do what she wants with regards to her health. We are all just trying to cope with her decisions.
No one knows when they are going to die. Sometimes people with a very grim health prognosis, will hang on for a very long time and sometimes people who are seemingly in great health suddenly die. The thing we are struggling with is that she is done with being sick and has come to the point of refusing further treatment. We respect her wishes as we hope other folks will respect ours. It is not an easy situation for anyone concerned.
I understand her desire. I have a friend that recently passed from breast cancer. It had been gone for many years but when it returned she fought it as best she could (without telling anyone it had returned) and decided she was done fighting. She passed on her own terms and peacefully.
We had a service for her. I was not there but learned that a chaplain spoke of how her giving up on fighting it was actually her giving up on God. When I heard of this I was told not to speak to him as I have no problem telling anyone when I think they're full of crap. A co-worker and friend said he agreed with the chaplains assessment.
I told him (with all the brotherly love I could muster, mind you) that I did not merely think he was full of shit, but I knew it. Your wife is to be the center of my prayers this night. I have no claim to a direct line to anyone, least of all God but that has never stopped me from asking what I think is worth asking for.
The two of you are more than worth it. So that you will know I speak from the heart I will say this. Which is easier to say, I will pray for you or be well in His name? Both are well meaning but I would much rather say the latter of the two for while prayer is nice, to be made whole is far, far better.
Please give her my love. I would not say as much were it not so. I am not the best example of what Christ would show the world but at the very least I am honest.
In all ways and for always, be well my friend.