My "benders" would last months At a time. I never drank as a "kid" and really knew nothing about alcohol or alcohol withdrawal or hangovers when I started drinking. So when i started it was just to help me sleep since i had insomnia still from kicking Nubian in 02, so I was just self-medicating rather than drinking to have a good time and enjoy it. I can actually think of maybe 3 or 4 times in my life that I actually drank for "fun".. I don't think ive ever had a "hangover" cuz i would always start the next day with a shot and would continue to drink all day. That shit would build up to 2L vodka/day everyday without ever "getting drunk" so until I stopped drinking, nobody even knew indrank, or drank heavy. When me and my ex would go to a friends house for a bbq I would have to do triple shots for each one of their shots to keep up and have the same effect they had from one shot LOL. Or when the company owners of the fundraising office Iran wood invite all the employees out to longboard Bar and Grill in Pacific Beach in San Diego I would have to joke and make sure they brought their credit card because if they're buying I'm probably going to be drinking $300 worth of shots just by myself.. although very often because I don't want anybody to know I drink. For instance I remember one time we got a huge shipment of envelopes it had to be unloaded from the back of a truck and carried up to the second floor office and I'm getting paid for this right? joking. And the order says sure I'll buy you a six pack of beer and i reply "nah I'm good. I don't drink" lol .. Was kinda accepted in that office though since a good 85% of my employees where drug addicts of some sort, or college kids on summer vacation who would get hammered all day at the beach and then show up to work Sunburn and still drunk or high on LSD or Coke at 5 p.m. & so long as they could read the scripts and not curse on the phones and get sales, we didn't give a shit. Lol... This last time the week before I went to rehab I actually had a seizure from alcohol withdrawal two weekends in a row both at my dad's house both right in front of my dad. The first was like a partial seizure where I could kinda control my fall forward but was unable to stand up and had to crawl on my belly like a snake (couldn't support myself on my hands and knees) through both living rooms a hallway and office into the garage and need help getting into the back seat of the SUV and needed a wheelchair to get into the ER.. the second one was a full-on grand mal seizure and I feel straight backwards like a 2x4 falling over smashing the back of my head on his tile floor spraying blood everywhere into a full-on grand mal seizure with foam coming out of my mouth and shit and woke up to an EMT standing over me next to a big yellow stretcher. Lol... Embarrassing as hell. That was my third concussion in about five weeks & kinda fucked up my memory of the previous 2 months. Lol
