What did Ronnie Coleman say after his debilitating back surgery last year to where he needed extensive rehab to even walk again? He was asked do you regret squatting 1000lbs now? His answer was " my only regret is I didn't go heavier". Spoken like a true warrior. One of his famous quotes was "everybody wanna get big, but ain't nobody want to lift no heavy ass weights". Everything we do in life comes with a price tag. If you want to get big and muscular with low body fat you have to juice. They are relatively safe if used sensibly. You need to research them to death and make the right decisions. It takes time to realize which ones work best for you depending on your goals. If your taking grams you are taking a chance.
If you are young, say under 35 you probably want to cycle off. If you are older blast and cruise might be better. If you are under 23 you should be natural and working towards your natural peak. Your first cycle should be 250mg test only every 5-7 days. You will get your best gains then if your gear is good. That gives you a chance to see how you respond to test only. Did you bloat, any gyno, bad temper, sleep issues etc. if you start higher you have nowhere to go but up. Think of it as a marathon. Slow and go. Three steps forward, one step back. Your second cycle bump up to 500mg test only. You should be getting plenty of gains if your diet is good and training enough. Two cycles a year is plenty just starting out. Ad more compounds slowly, one at a time. Later in life you will be happy you took things slow and still have your health. Keep up with blood work and dose or come off accordingly. Listen to your body. It's all relative to the end game. No one knows what will happen so safe is good.