i wonder where the insecurity comes from? like for heath he is a 7 time Olympia winner why would you need to be insecure?
i'm guessing its from when you were in highschool and college and were a skinny or fat pimpled face loser?
A guy named Alan Klein trained at Gold's Venice for almost a decade, and used the bodybuilders there as subjects for his research papers. There was almost always an element of low self esteem during their formative years with the high level guys. Surprising thing was it was seen quite a bit in the thin guys more than the fats.
Weider wasn't immune either. A bunch of pros mentioned that if you saw him, and tried to put on airs, he wouldn't give you the good spots in the magazines, etc..... But if you asked him to help you learn posing, look over your diet, etc.... he'd give you the choice spots, and maybe even a free ad in the magazine for your course or something. Back in early 80's money, a good 1 page ad was $2500 in the mag, and considered a huge perk.