Life tends to hit real hard and often when you least expect it.
My mother developed heart failure very suddenly, she was admitted to ICU, after couple of days she seemed to be doing ok, she was out of ICU, ready to go back home, we were joking, all jolly, she flatlined in my arms, it took one week to get her back.
She discharged from hospital, I drove her back her home, joking she hard resetted like a computer, looking better than ever, we laughted.
She entered her apartment, sat on her favourite sofa.
She said she is so happy to be back her home with her sons.
And her head fell.
With my Medical doctor brother we CPR for 35 minutes straight till the ambulance arrive.
We lost her and good part of our optimist outlook towards life.
9 months later I miss her like crazy but I am physically and emotionally better than my twenties, I guess life can hit you with all its might, but it is up to you how you react.
I wish you resilience to go through hell and keep it together to the end.