You look to be an almost pure ectomorph, competitive bodybuilding is not for you. Basically your a long distance runner genetically, all you are doing with your bio identical therapy or high levels of test and HGH is shortening your lifespan with no real positive effect on your physique as the two hormones push up your already naturally high metabolic rate even further. Your giving yourself Crohns by over eating in an attempt to put on mass, taxing your digestive system hard, but your heart rate isn on par with a meth head. No hate buddy your an annoying character but I don't wish harm on anyone. Slow down and train for fun or you will be dead in 5- 10 years. Its not worth it. Bodybuilding is for mesomorphs or certainly people who have a high degree of meso, unfortunately you don't.