I have never claimed natural or 19 my left arm is 18.5 though. Sorry I don't have hips and compliments attacks whatever feeds my current mania trying to stay motivated to train despite an injury. I figure if I work out for 15 minutes I get to post a flex pic on the internet anyway I can keep motivated. But yes also want to see if I am actually makign progress between pics that other people see or if it is all in my head. I mean I will think I am skinny and fat then jacked then realize I may just be average and fooling myself with lighting and mirrors I lose 5 lbs and feel like a child I gain 5 and cant stop eating I am so excited to see the scale move then I am sick and throwing up with acid reflux. Its some kind of manic eating body image disorder more appropriate for a teenage girl than a grown man I get that. I get nervous and pinch my fat in public always find myself grabbing it. I train at home I don't go to a gym with other meatheads. I see pro bodybuilders and feel like a small child but I can't get there but I need hamstrings I need arms I can't just be denied. But the body is old the digestive system doesnt work I have sleep issues and freaking arthritis old injuries you name it I am too old for this shit. But I want to be more tomorrow than I am today is that too much to ask? I want to have shrinkwrap skin. I want to be vascular but also massive I just want more. So laugh make fun whatever I know you cant be in better shape at 50 than 25 but fuck it I am going to try anyway
A lot of people have the same thoughts that you do about themselves. Nobody except the most narcissistic, likes their own appearance all of the time. It is said people are harder on themselves than others are. Everyone gets old. Lots of folks have arthritis and other irritating heath problems. Worry and anxiety causes sleep disorders and acid reflux....but you already know that. Goals are a good thing when they are realistic. Never give up.
I assume the no hips comment is because some folks here have given you shit about how you wear your pants. Ignore them (they probably want to see more of your torso
). Dress how you like. Most men have narrow hips...wide hips are not manly. Ever see a guy with wide hips.....it is not attractive at all. I feel very sorry for them.
Why is your left arm 18.5"? assuming it is the larger of the two. Are you left handed?
I could have responded with a list of the things I don't like about my body, but it would have been so long that nobody would have read it. Sometimes the things I don't like about myself motivate me and sometimes I feel defeated by them. I should take up smoking weed.