I failed to comment on Madonna's fishy smelling vagina because I've never smelled it. Apparently you have.
Aside from the above nothing else in your post makes any sense. Chuck...Chuck who? Why would I know this person. The are about 3 million people live in the Portland Metro area. While I've met a lot of people over the years, I am fairly particular about who I become friends with. Not that there is anything wrong with acting in porn films. I wouldn't do it, but to each his own.
You are rambling again....is everything okay? I mean, you usually make some sense, even when I don't agree with what you are saying. Maybe it is time you brave a damn mask and get out among other folks and socialize. You really seem to be losing it lately. Senility shouldn't be the issue because you are still young....relatively speaking. But then, there is such a thing as Early Onset Alzheimer's. But ,you're even a bit younger that when that happens to some unfortunate folks. Better go to the doctor. You might be that one rare case that moves it into an even younger age group. How close to 40 are you? As far as I know that is about the earliest age at which folks are diagnosed with it.
Chuck lived [lives?] in Portland, Oregon.
You live in Portland, Oregon.
You may call me Sherlock Holmes from now on. Perhaps each thread I post in for the first time, you can reply to that post by saying "Sherlock Holmes has entered the thread."
Out of curiosity, when you said that you are fairly particular about who you become friends with...would you say this means you generally only befriend other White liberals? Democrats, basically. Or perhaps Democrats of any race? Just curious if you could clarify that statement a little.
Regarding my age, I am turning 40 on December 21st. I have essentially been a mess since being with a feminist in the summer of 2018 [with a total timeframe of seeing her daily being around 4-6 months]. She was an absolutely wretched, awful human being, and when I saw that shared a Facebook post from a group called "Feminist Daily", I called her and asked her if she was a feminist, stating that we cannot be too close if she is a feminist [as feminists are INSANE, and basically see victimization everywhere, even in the myriad of areas where they are granted preferential treatment based on gender]. When I said that, she denied being a feminist, and then I heard her crying and running away, at which point, the conversation was over, and I took her denial of being a feminist as truth, when OBVIOUSLY THE TIP-OFF/RED FLAG SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE POST FROM FEMINIST DAILY THAT SHE SHARED ON HER FACEBOOK PAGE.
But...being the typical autistic that I am, not understanding the utility in lying, I trusted her word, given that she explicitly answered no to my question asking her directly if she was a feminist.
So...I brought that one all on myself, although it was the perfect storm of other variables that allowed me to be continually exploited and otherwise mistreated by her. She was without any doubt the biggest leach that I have ever been exposed to, and it boggles my mind how she could ever think anyone would possibly remain her friend, given how awful she is to people.
Her low self-esteem was evident, and she was the type of person who would want to drag other people with no self-esteem issues down to the same level of misery and self-loathing that she had for herself. One night, I asked her why she thought she was such a horrible person, and she replied "When people tell you that you are a horrible person, and tell you that they hate you all your life, you start to believe it."
Only when the masses of her lies [actively being addicted to opiates and benzodiazepines for FIVE YEARS by the time I met her, having had sex with over 30 men by the time she turned 30, compared to my body count of eight women by the same age, and on and on] all started to unravel, did I realize that I was attracted to her for things she said about herself that just weren't true.
One minor example of this [of many, far worse examples] was her one day saying that she was considering buying a vibrator, and asking me whether or not it made her a bad person to buy a vibrator.
Her point in doing this was to come across as if she was sexually restrained, knowing that most men prefer not being with women who are sluts, for a host of valid reasons, and that happens to be a quality that women somewhat share too - I don't think a woman who is sexually restrained [for example, a woman who is fairly particular about what men they sleep with or how many men they sleep with, in the same way you are fairly particular about who you befriend, as you mentioned] is going to be thrilled about entering a long-term relationship with a man who has had sex with 100+ or 150+ [or God only knows how many] women.
There is a woman I know who is just over 40, and is a fairly attractive Finnish blonde woman [or was - if you were to wind the clock back a decade or two, when she was probably 40-lb or more lighter, obviously much younger and closer to her prime, and more attractive facially - owing in part to being punched in the face repeatedly by a Black gang member in town over an incident involving smoking crack, which has made her face look subtly different even months after the incident happened in October]. I had sex with her in 2003, but I have no interest in having sex with her now. She is not one to speak directly on things [not unusual among women, but as an autistic, I can't stand speaking in code, especially to a woman, and ESPECIALLY in the #MeToo era of dating and sexuality], but it seemed to surprise and offend her one time a while back when she took off her pants and panties in front of me, but I politely told her that I wasn't interested [in having sex with her]. I gave her reasons for not wishing to go all the way with her without saying it directly [even though we had sex previously - but again, that was a long time ago], and tried my best not to hurt her feelings with how I said it, by basically saying there was another woman who I was sort of seeing [even though I wasn't in a relationship, and was technically single].
We got together more recently [in February of this year], and once again, I had no interest in having sex with her.
So why did I have no interest in having sex with her, and still have no interest?
It was not because of her looks, despite her looks having waned with age, and despite the beating she got from that Black guy having altered her facial symmetry, even though it was four months since it happened [when she was showing me the photos of her face taken on the night of the assault, battered and bruised, I said "Didn't you call me a "White Supremacist" before, when all I did was point out the disparities in violent crime committed by Black men, and yet here you are, showing me photos of you being assaulted, and telling me it was a Black guy who did this to you, and wanting me to feel sorry for you, yet you called me a bigot for simply warning you of the frequency of this type of thing?", to which she replied "That was before I had personal experience with it."
NO SH*T, but call me names for simply stating facts].
It was not because of her weight, which she claimed was up "COVID weight", even though she's an alcoholic, and smokes crack.
It was not because of her age, which impacts both of the above attributes; her facial attractiveness, and her weight [metabolism].
So why? Because SHE'S FUCKED 200 MEN.
That's why!
Why on EARTH would I want to sleep with a woman who has slept with that many men, and is completely careless about it [and routinely gets cummed in, and has had one abortion, and once felt her groin and asked me "Do you know if a woman can get pregnant at a certain time in her cycle?" I was thinking to myself "Are you f*cking serious? You're a woman, and you don't even know the dates when you can get pregnant??" Yet she fucks everything with a dick, and prefers to not use condoms, and to be ejaculated into by the man she is having sex with.
THAT is why I have NO interest in having sex with her - even if she loses the excess weight that she's put on over the years/decades, and even if her face continues to heal as the months pass, and quits the heavy drinking, and starts to be healthier and look better. Because it just DISGUSTS me that anyone - woman OR man - would sleep with that many people, especially as recklessly as she had. Keep in mind that I had only lost my virginity four months before I was with her, and I didn't know any better at the time - and hopefully I was within the first 25 or 50 men she was with [or hopefully even FEWER, although she was 24 at the time, and for all I know, she had already been having sex for ten years or more...].
It just grosses me out to think that she is probably a carrier of every strain of HPV that exists, and will literally sleep with anything with a dick. I don't even think she is attracted to MEN, so much as she is attracted to DICKS. Although I do have reason to believe that she is attracted to men for things aside from their dicks - but I still think she is literally attracted to DICKS by themselves, and is THE biggest slut that I know [I can only think of three other people who have told me that they had sex with 150+ people, and she is the ONLY person I have ever met who told me directly that she slept with over 200 PEOPLE].
THAT is why I didn't want to have sex with her.
Anyway, I went off-topic there, talking about that bitch I was hanging out with in 2018 who caused me a great deal of damage, by bringing up the aforementioned blonde Finnish slut who slept with 200 men. It's related because men in general are attracted to SOME level of sexual restraint, and feminists are basically brainwashed and told that there are no consequences to having as much sex as possible, and that men and "The Patriarchy" hold them down, and prevent them from sucking and fucking every dick they see.
So the woman from 2018 purposely asked me if buying a vibrator would make her a bad person because she wanted me to THINK that she was sexually restrained, but one morning I was with her and she was extremely intoxicated, and then told me she had sex with 30 men [which may be around the correct number, given that she was drunk, and alcohol acts as a truth serum for a lot of people]. But it's possible that she had sex with even MORE men that that, and she was under 30 at the time. When she said that I was thinking "WTF?" Meanwhile, I was treating her as sexually restrained based on comments she had made, including subtle, deceptive sort of things like her vibrator question, and other comments she made, where she more explicitly portrayed herself as sexually chaste.
When I was FINALLY exposed to enough truth about her, which was MUCH different than how she was portraying herself from being, I was no longer attracted to her the way I initially was. On top of that, she was a complete leach, and a straight-up feminist who believed in garbage like Canada and The West being a "Rape Culture" - something she explicitly stated.
But in fairness to me, I did EXPLICITLY ask her about these things, and she either directly lied to me [like when she said that she was not being a feminist when I point-blank directly asked her if she was one], or deceived me by saying things that would OBVIOUSLY make me have a certain impression of her that was NOT reality. For example, regarding her drug addiction, one day she said to me "Just so you know - I've used opiates in my past." I was thinking "Huh? Who flipping cares if an adult tried a drug at one point in their lives?" Meanwhile, she was ACTIVELY ADDICTED TO BOTH OPIATES AND BENZODIAZEPINES AT THE TIME.
And making a statement like that, even though it was technically a truthful statement, was done purposely to DECEIVE me. Even though it was a truthful statement, it was a half-truth because she said it to deceive me into not knowing she had an active drug addiction, so in her own mind she could say "Well - I did tell him I used opiates in the past!" BITCH, STATING YOU USED A DRUG IN THE PAST THAT YOU ARE CURRENTLY ADDICTED TO NOW TO MAKE SOMEONE THINK YOU ARE NOT A DRUG ADDICT IS NOT BEING UPFRONT AND HONEST.
But she would do things like that in order to basically be telling a pack of lies, without actually lying.
At other times, she DID lie about things that I caught her lying about, and called her out.
One day, around the time I stopped talking to her permanently, I texted her "Do you remember that time you asked me if buying a vibrator would make you a bad person? YOU FUCKED 30 GUYS!!!" LOL. At other times, I added stuff like "So you basically sat on every dick you could during your twenties, while drinking and doing drugs, and not getting a post-secondary education because of all the time you spent fucking, but you wonder if it's morally wrong for you to buy a vibrator? LOL."
I would also make it a point to remind her that she lives at home with her parents, works a low-wage job, and has no money, assets, or available credit.
This bitch was COMPLETELY NASTY, and HATED the fact that I had gone to university, had my own house and car, savings, credit, etc, and, frankly, embodied the old saying "Misery loves company", because she wanted to do and say things to me to make me feel badly about myself, and it was just impossible to deal with her as a result [not to mention the mood swings from her drug addiction].
She was much worse than how I have described here, and was just a disaster to have in my life, and is probably the worst thing to have ever happened to me. Even the amazing girlfriend I had in 2019-2020 did not help me get over that bitch from 2018.
So since you asked what's essentially wrong with me, or what's been gnawing on me in recent times - it's having been with that awful woman in 2018, and it just being a complete disaster attempting to navigate her feminism, PTSD from her previous ex-boyfriend, and mental state from being a drug addict, among other things. She really ruined me, and I would only say that two months ago, some time in March, did I finally sort of "snap out of it".
That and COVID lockdowns and other mandates have been bothering me, but I'm happy to say that only JUST this month was I able to find a place to train in that has everything, and so I will be back to my usual traditional workouts, and immediately felt better when I found that option, on top of just feeling better out of the blue in March.
So while I am mostly doing ok now, and more or less just share the same issues as everyone else who lives in countries or states or provinces that have strict lockdown or other COVID measures in place. I can't claim that anything I am going through right now is different than a person living in Ireland who is probably subject to lockdowns that are just as strict, if not even more strict than the ones in Ontario [even though they are pretty bad here].
As far as I am aware, I have no cognitive illness, but since you asked me what was causing me issues - there it is! I cant honestly say meeting that woman in 2018 and the experiencing the misery she dragged me through REALLY sapped my will to live, and I am only JUST now [in the past two months] finally feeling noticeably better about it, and putting it in my rearview.
I am also extremely excited to be able to get back on a full workout program, and as I get back into gym training, I will refine my diet to the letter, even though my diet and nutrition has ben reasonably good throughout this whole hyped pandemic so far. So it seems like there are good times ahead, and I am finally feeling fantastic, and looking forward to the future for the first time in a long time.
Seriously Matt, seek help before it is too late and before every woman's vagina starts smelling like fish to you. Is it possible you're gay and have only just recently started to realize it? Or maybe the only women you know are unclean ones who have vaginitis which can smell like decomposed (rotting), fish.
Don't all women's vaginas smell like FISH, making it already too late?
Jk. I know that not all women's vaginas smell like fish, and personally I enjoy when a woman's vagina has a nice, FAINT fishy scent. I also much prefer when a woman has pubic hair [either a full bush - or at the very least, SOME pubic hair, and not a vulva shaved completely bald]. I'm not the only man who enjoys giving a woman oral sex, nor am I the only man who enjoys smelling a woman's vagina.
Regarding possibly being gay...after what I went through in 2018, I would NOT say not to Straight Conversion Therapy.
Unfortunately, all I have heard is that it is bogus, and not physically possible to change your sexual orientation. Ah well...in time, I will get over the bitch I was spending time with in 2018, and start seeing more women.
Thank you for your confirming that women's vaginas sometimes smell fishy.
It's not like this is just a figment of my imagination! I do get that some men are not into cunnilingus at all, but I am a big fan, and I don't think there is anything particularly unusual about enjoying it.
But - ok, fine - not every single woman has an extremely fishy vagina or anything! I just think it's funny that sometimes even the hottest women alive are self-conscious about that.
Several hot women have told me they do not accept cunnilingus from a man because they are self-conscious that their vaginas smell. Apparently even Britney Spears is self-conscious about this, proving that even the hottest women alive can be insecure about these things.
