I think I have a solution to your troubles, epic is back. It is clear to all of us that you are stalking Goodrum, even 4 am at night. You obsess over his whole life and you bump old Goodrum threads. Here is what i recommend you do.
You download the Grindr app, and find any black cock you can suck in your neighbourhood. As you suck this black cock, close your eyes and put on a Goodrum video on Youtube. Suck in perpetual motion as you listen to Melvin's voice.
I think that will calm you down since you will never have access to the kielbasa, which you so desperately crave.