My 13 year old died on Sunday.

[WalterWhite]

I am a father/grandfather myself and can't imagine the sorrow you and your family are dealing with..

I am sorry for your loss.

[honest]

Brutal if true? Is that what everyone is upset about… that doesn’t bother me at all.

I don’t post here often anymore guys and only checked getbig once in a while after I became a parent but I am 51 years old and have been on the site since 1997 believe it or not.

I was here before the whole forum got erased one year in the early 2000’s.

I was interested in the bodybuilding gossip and never really got into the underbelly of getbig etc and drifted out of it.

However, there are some people here who I have PMed over the years that I like as people and wanted to share my situation with.

Hell, even people like Coach, who I rarely agree about anything on outside of bodybuilding stuff, is a person I still liked interacting with and I always enjoyed his stories about his son when he was young and how he was excelling at baseball etc and I hoped to be a parent one day which finally happened at age 38… shit, even lately I have been asking Coach to get a CAC score done on his heart just in case he has any heart disease.

I even used getbig to announce the death of an Australian bodybuilder from the 90s only the elders would know about but many people PMed me thanking me for announcing it since they loved the guy and had lost touch with him (he was the most likable person I ever knew in bodybuilding and maybe even general life… RIP Adrian Chronis).

My wife and I are really in a bad place right now and I am rambling as you can see but this thread has helped me a little this week as I knew it would so thanks to everyone and have a great Olympia weekend I just purchased the live stream.

Been here since 97 like you and appreciated you letting me know about Adrian who I had lost contact with post competitive bodybuilding, I'm so sorry for what you and your wife are going through right now, I hope in time you will learn to live with your loss, it will take time, I've lost love ones all be it never a loss as great as yours, until then reach out to any of us where you need to, whilst there's a lot of arseholes on here, there is also a core group of guys who have much in common, and have been through our own challenges, hang in there friend.

[jwb]

Been here since 97 like you and appreciated you letting me know about Adrian who I had lost contact with post competitive bodybuilding, I'm so sorry for what you and your wife are going through right now, I hope in time you will learn to live with your loss, it will take time, I've lost love ones all be it never a loss as great as yours, until then reach out to any of us where you need to, whilst there's a lot of arseholes on here, there is also a core group of guys who have much in common, and have been through our own challenges, hang in there friend.

hey buddy hope you are well

[booty]

Absolutely devastating. My heart goes out to you and your wife. I am so sorry for your loss.

[Titus Pullo]

From the influenza A virus.

They weren’t vaxed for Covid or flu either.

They were type one diabetic though, and every virus they ever caught had taken longer and longer to recover from compared to the last one.

My condolences

[Cook]

My condolences

same from me sir.

[Tapeworm]

Really sorry to hear this, j.

[will938]

Sorry for your loss mate

[nzmusclemonster]

Can't begin to imagine what you and your wife are going through, condolences to you both.

[irishdave]

From the influenza A virus.

They weren’t vaxed for Covid or flu either.

They were type one diabetic though, and every virus they ever caught had taken longer and longer to recover from compared to the last one.

I’m so sorry for your loss

[irishdave]

It would seem so
TBH I wasnt the first to cast doubt

OP sorry for your loss

You need To come off the anti depressants. I mean it. It’s not an attack on you but I can sense they’re
 affecting you negatively

[joswift]

You need To come off the anti depressants. I mean it. It’s not an attack on you but I can sense they’re
 affecting you negatively

At least Im not looking at joists in my garage and thinking the worst
I was in a deep hole for a couple of years.
Now with the medication I can at least function
Sure, I look at things differently, I dont have the downs (not syndrome)and I also dont have the ups either
My life is a straight line.

[irishdave]

At least Im not looking at joists in my garage and thinking the worst
I was in a deep hole for a couple of years.
Now with the medication I can at least function
Sure, I look at things differently, I dont have the downs (not syndrome)and I also dont have the ups either
My life is a straight line.

That’s very tough, my friend.

I didn’t realise you were that suicidal. Do you reckon juice and other PEDs have something to do with it or is it genetic? As in a dopamine deficiency? Do you think you’ll stay on them? Anyone I know who used lexapro went off the rails but probably because they stayed taking drugs and Other benzos like Xanax etc

[joswift]

That’s very tough, my friend.

I didn’t realise you were that suicidal. Do you reckon juice and other PEDs have something to do with it or is it genetic? As in a dopamine deficiency? Do you think you’ll stay on them? Anyone I know who used lexapro went off the rails but probably because they stayed taking drugs and Other benzos like Xanax etc

I had simple kidney stone surgery that went wrong causing a bleed, I almost died, three hour surgery to stop the bleeding and three weeks in hospital.
Heavy blood loss is linked to depression (hence post natal depression after childbirth)

I have always been pretty nonplussed about people in general and dont really form strong bonds with them.
I dont really miss people if they die or tend to be that bothered.
There is only my wife that is important to me.

[honest]

hey buddy hope you are well

Im doing ok still above ground and training, all be it not like back in the day. Gather your strength for the upcoming holidays and Christmas, no doubt its going to be a very tough period for you and the wife. Hang in there, and stay strong for each other.Get in the gym and take time to walk, never under estimate the power of routine and exercise and its ability to help you take focus off what must be excruciating pain.Hang in there.