i do some times too, but faith is all your going to have. in the end, just like everyone else.
if its a topic your interested in i would suggest wonder of the world by varghese, great book. its a dialouge between a atheist and theist. very good arguements. i always rep this book but it changed antony flews mind(worlds leading atheist) to becoming a deist.
anyone who beleives that this is all there is, is dead wrong imo.
theres just too much evidence to the contrary, and alot of spiritual experiences, wether they be psychadelics(DMT, interesting stuff) parapsychology, physics etc all have a common theme. im not saying there has to be a god looking after us, i dont beleive that, but there is more to life then we know. for instance if string theory or multiverse are right, we are only a slice of reality and other dimensions exist.
shits crazy once you read alot of material.
heres a link to the book if your interested.
http://www.amazon.com/Wonder-World-Journey-Modern-Science/dp/0972347313