You're a talentless hack that's spends his last days on a message board for social interaction. I guarentee you're not as mouthy and tough in person. You're a bitter, sad old man, that has many regrets that clings to some warped sense of moral high ground you believe you have, but nope. You're a talentless loser. 
Your "whiteness" has NOTHING to do with it. You just plain and outright suck as a human being. What negative energy you have, who could stand to be around that? Your energy is repulsive.
"Your energy is repulsive." New Age 'tardish speak. You belong to a cult and while a cult is traditionally thought of as a "religion" without political power, in the case of Jizzraelites such as yourself it should also be noted that you're without a brain capable of much beyond involuntary actions such as breathing and a heartbeat.
Your parents called. They want their surname back.