If you don't compete than your NOT in my league. I'm in the NPC and your in the??
... you know exactly what I was talking about.
I don't even consider you a competitor just because you got your fat ass on a stage as you were definitely no competition for anyone that day.
Now honestly what are you proud of ? Not following your diet ? Looking like complete shit ? Probably embarrassing your family ? The only thing I could actually think of is having the guts to step on a BODYBUILDING stage while not looking like a bodybuilder at all .. or someone who does sports.
I've been busting my ass off for almost a decade now and look pretty good .. way above average. That's actually an achievment and something I am proud of .. because I look better than 99,9% of the population.
And by the way just because competition and federations seem to mean more than accomplishments to you - I competed in the IPF (International Powerlifting Federation if you're not familiar with it) and I will compete in the IFBB soon.