he tried to grab her. He said of all the times he wanted her dead that wasn't one of them.
I don't believe him, B. The thing I like best about the show is his slow self-destruction. Unlike all other shows where people work through their demons until the show ends with them in a positive light, Troy seems the complete opposite. He's getting worse.
I watched that episode twice and went back to just that scene a few more times.
He didn't try to grab/save her
The look on his face was not one of shock
He knew what he was doing