ask the guy in your avatar if he "cruised" or not.
As i have read you are not competing and want to "stay on" forever? spend the next "few" decades thinking about your next "cycle", spending money on drugs of questionable quality, pinning yourself in the bathroom while your parents and brothers sisters are eatting dinner and "waiting" for you ? and youre 20, thats pretty stupid.
Im 21-22 myself and competing, im seriously thinking of comming off a lot of months....not only for my own health but for the longevity in this sport. i want to clear my mind from "juicing" and worrying if i wake up one day in pain and rushed to hosspital
For how long will you "pin" your asscheeks and living in all this agony of whats going on inside you? you might look good from the outside but from the inside its the opposite.
wow relax and take your pills. competing or not who give a fuck, I do this for myself only, not to expose my body in a thong to homos to win a plastic trophy. I live alone, no family waiting for me to pin my ass before eating, stop thinking whats happening in your shitty life happens also to other guys of your age.
Gear is only a little support for me to enjoy life as much as possible, if I can feel better psychologically, look better physically, be stronger, without any sides, only by shooting some oils in my ass a few times a week before going to sleep, why not do it ?
The gym+gear is only a hobby for me, the only things I really care about and will spend the next decades thinking about is 1.my family 2.my career 3.friends. Feel free to 'focus' on winning the war on stage in a thong with homos cracking one off in the audience if you want, and 'impress' the bros at your gym by blowing up after being small for 6 months, who will only tell to each others in your back: that guy's only know how to use a needle,fuck this dude