WTF happened to Johnnynoname.........?

[Shockwave]

so you clean now?

Yes, for quite some time.

Dr. Dutch -
I did it on my own, at home. Clonodine never seemed to help me all that much. I had an extremely high tolerance.

Andre -
It was basically a week of alternating between extreme chills and hot flashes, and cold sweats, feeling like your skin is on fire or coursing with electricity, diarrhea, vomiting, and inability to sleep. Oh, and one minute you'll be crying at stupid emotional shit on tv, the next minute you may be laughing hysterically, the next you may feel nothing.

Every few hours the symptoms would get much worse, then they'd slack off for a little bit, then worse, back and forth like a yoyo.
Over time the ups and downs would get less extreme and they'd start to level out, until you just feel like shit instead of like completely hammered shit.

The sleep deprivation was the worst, because there was no reprieve and no time to recover, I maybe got 1 hour of sleep a night, and it wasnt really sleep. This lasted for 5-7 days, then I started sleeping around 4 hours a night. That lasted from weeks to months (depending on how long and what opiates I had been using) until I started working out again.

[Borracho]

^
good for you man 

[Mr Nobody]

Yes, for quite some time.

Dr. Dutch -
I did it on my own, at home. Clonodine never seemed to help me all that much. I had an extremely high tolerance.

Andre -
It was basically a week of alternating between extreme chills and hot flashes, and cold sweats, feeling like your skin is on fire or coursing with electricity, diarrhea, vomiting, and inability to sleep. Oh, and one minute you'll be crying at stupid emotional shit on tv, the next minute you may be laughing hysterically, the next you may feel nothing.

Every few hours the symptoms would get much worse, then they'd slack off for a little bit, then worse, back and forth like a yoyo.
Over time the ups and downs would get less extreme and they'd start to level out, until you just feel like shit instead of like completely hammered shit.

The sleep deprivation was the worst, because there was no reprieve and no time to recover, I maybe got 1 hour of sleep a night, and it wasnt really sleep. This lasted for 5-7 days, then I started sleeping around 4 hours a night. That lasted from weeks to months (depending on how long and what opiates I had been using) until I started working out again.

Sounds like hell. Welcome back Method.

[MikMaq]

I was given a script for like two weeks worth of pain killers. Safe to say a bottle was suppose to last a week, and I had one gone in 2.5 days. I would sit there with a timer in my hands waiting to take the next pill. I never refilled for the second week. It didn't take the pain away, it just was just something to do. That shit is for the devil.

[BigCyp]

that's a better question, where is kiwiol?

Kiwi taken a few months out, had a busy time but will be back very shortly.

[Dr Dutch]

Do you still have craving moments, Shockwave ?

[LurkerNoMore]

For those of you ex addicts, how could you possibly even begin to use that stuff in the first place when it is well known what it does to you?

[CalvinH]

COME BACK JOHNNY,JUST COME BACK!!

[Shockwave]

Do you still have craving moments, Shockwave ?

All the time, but the longer im sober, the less frequent they occur. For me, its just a matter of reminding myself I cant partake, as it would destroy my life. Especially now with a child on the way, its 100x more important to me to stay sober.

Lurker -
Thats a loaded question. Everyone is different. Its not like I woke up one day and decided to use Heroin or Meth, it was a progression, especially seeing as how I never would even so much as smoke pot when I was younger.

I started when I was playing in a band, when I started drinking heavily. Im an addict - plain and simple. No emotional problems, no shitty family life. As soon as I discovered how much I could change my mental state - it kicked off my addiction. Then it was "Well i wonder how this would make me feel". The curiosity overrode my normal judgement, and as soon as I did it a few times, It was over.

Drinking every weekend turned into drinking and doing coke every weekend, then turned into just coke, then turned into meth, turned into IV use, turned into Heroin. If you had asked me if I could see myself slamming heroin in the begining, I would have told you that you were insane and I would never touch the stuff.

Its a slippery slope and no one is safe from it. I've seen arguments that some people are genetically pre-disposed to addiction, and I whole heartedly believe it. Some of my friends could snort a couple lines and be done - I couldnt. I couldnt stop until I ran out of money.

[El Diablo Blanco]

JNN started his own website.  gh 15. org

[ChristopherA]

Props to you Shockwave and Groink. I'm an opiate addict myself, been sober for almost 3yrs now. I used soboxone to clean up but even that has it's drawbacks. You never think you are gonna get addicted, that's for weak people. And for awhile I could do it here and there, then it just keeps building up. Next thing you know if I didnt have my oxys I wouldnt leave the house. They just appealed to me so much because I could snort one and be social, chatting people up, etc and no one would know the better. I have a little bit of social anxiety so it was the perfect drug

[BB]

I'm not sure if anyone's spoken to him since, but he was around a Howard Stern message board 2 - 3 months back. He might just be taking a break.

[wes]

Yes, for quite some time.

Dr. Dutch -
I did it on my own, at home. Clonodine never seemed to help me all that much. I had an extremely high tolerance.

Andre -
It was basically a week of alternating between extreme chills and hot flashes, and cold sweats, feeling like your skin is on fire or coursing with electricity, diarrhea, vomiting, and inability to sleep. Oh, and one minute you'll be crying at stupid emotional shit on tv, the next minute you may be laughing hysterically, the next you may feel nothing.

Every few hours the symptoms would get much worse, then they'd slack off for a little bit, then worse, back and forth like a yoyo.
Over time the ups and downs would get less extreme and they'd start to level out, until you just feel like shit instead of like completely hammered shit.

The sleep deprivation was the worst, because there was no reprieve and no time to recover, I maybe got 1 hour of sleep a night, and it wasnt really sleep. This lasted for 5-7 days, then I started sleeping around 4 hours a night. That lasted from weeks to months (depending on how long and what opiates I had been using) until I started working out again.

Congrats brother,it`s never an easy thing to get clean and sober............it took me forever until it finally stuck.

[Dr Dutch]

And there's always that sudden "life event": family member dies isuddenly, wife leaves you, you lose your job.....I've had patients who were 25 yrs sober, and were back to shit within weeks or even days.

It's a chronic disease.

[Shockwave]

And there's always that sudden "life event": family member dies isuddenly, wife leaves you, you lose your job.....I've had patients who were 25 yrs sober, and were back to shit within weeks or even days.

It's a chronic disease.

Correct. The moment someone thinks they beat it, it will kick you in the balls and suddenly youre right back into it.
I have to constantly be on my guard, I cant ever become complacent about it, otherwise those thoughts start coming back.
It's never ending, and it seems like however long youre sober, as soon as you pick it up again, youre right where you left off.

[Palpatine Q]

Props to you Shockwave and Groink. I'm an opiate addict myself, been sober for almost 3yrs now. I used soboxone to clean up but even that has it's drawbacks. You never think you are gonna get addicted, that's for weak people. And for awhile I could do it here and there, then it just keeps building up. Next thing you know if I didnt have my oxys I wouldnt leave the house. They just appealed to me so much because I could snort one and be social, chatting people up, etc and no one would know the better. I have a little bit of social anxiety so it was the perfect drug

That a big misconception with opiates, people think they are like a downer and you lay in the corner drooling.

It's the exact opposite for me, they gave me unbridled energy and i was in a fantastic mood 24/7...I was up for anything.

it's funny because when i read all of these "how to pick up women" threads, i say to myself "snort a couple of percs and you'll be fine, talking up a blue streak to the hottest girl in the place"

[Overload]

No emotional problems, no shitty family life. As soon as I discovered how much I could change my mental state - it kicked off my addiction. Then it was "Well i wonder how this would make me feel". The curiosity overrode my normal judgement, and as soon as I did it a few times, It was over.

Most of the addicts i've known over the years were just like this. Normal people who just got carried away and the next thing you know they are in deep trouble. I've lost a few friends to drugs and i used to use as well, but i never got carried away with it. I won't even drink more than a few beers once a month if that. Addiction runs in my family and my brother is a recovering alcoholic. It took 3 DWI's and jail time for him to even realize he had a problem. He passed out on the side of the road and woke up in the back of a cop car, he told me he was just really tired and it had nothing to do with drinking. He was living in denile for many years.

Seen a lot of good people get fucked up on pills. Even in the professional Architecture and Engineering field you see a lot of successful people use drugs. It's crazy once you see how rampant it really is in this country.

[Dr Dutch]

Few years ago the bathrooms of the members of the European Parliament in Brussels and Strassburg were tested for traces of illegal substances. They found shockingly high amounts of cocaine, amfetamines and even heroin.....even retested because they thought the test results were wrong.

[Psychopath]

I have an on an off relationship with nicotine...is heroin next?

...stay tuned. 

[The Abdominal Snoman]

JOKO HOMO by DEVO

[Dr Dutch]

I have an on an off relationship with nicotine...is heroin next?

...stay tuned. 

Well, Psycho, these two substances are considered the most addictive in the world....

[funk51]

He just vanished months ago......think he died ?

i thought he changed his name to salvatore.

[MikMaq]

Few years ago the bathrooms of the members of the European Parliament in Brussels and Strassburg were tested for traces of illegal substances. They found shockingly high amounts of cocaine, amfetamines and even heroin.....even retested because they thought the test results were wrong.

Meh half the population goes through a drug phase it's pretty much a cliche but it's part of our modern life.

The problem is the media, and how they just imagine extremes, because that's how society wants to view it. Even addicts like to believe it's cut and dry it makes life simpler.

The reality is the bulk of the population is recovering or becoming an addict. That really desperate stage for most people is rather short in comparison.

[Raymondo]

That a big misconception with opiates, people think they are like a downer and you lay in the corner drooling.

It's the exact opposite for me, they gave me unbridled energy and i was in a fantastic mood 24/7...I was up for anything.

it's funny because when i read all of these "how to pick up women" threads, i say to myself "snort a couple of percs and you'll be fine, talking up a blue streak to the hottest girl in the place"

That sounds intense... what made you realise you had to stop?

[Palpatine Q]

That sounds intense... what made you realise you had to stop?

not sure if serious, but....

My conscience...that's the most honest answer i can give. i wasn't ME anymore. and one day i just said "fuck this' and stopped cold turkey. that was many years ago and i haven't even seen a pill since that day

and for me...it wasn't the uphill battle to stay high all the time like it is for 90% of pill-heads. i had a crooked doctor who gave me whatever I wanted, and let me bring in other people for scrips as well, and i would take 30% right off the top of theirs. He wound up doing three years, and i was waiting for a knock on the door for six months after he got busted. never came thank God...You people want to know STRESS ?, stress is thinking you might be getting locked up....you are sick to your stomach 24/7 with worry.

I never ran low, or ran out..i actually had more pills than i knew what to do with. which in retrospect was the worse possible thing, because i never had that struggle, and had to question whether it was worth all the bullshit and shady deals to get high. I would wake up, rip back a few percs, put a shitload in my pocket and go about my day. every day, for years. I would give them away to chicks, sell them...whatever.

Not trying to brag, point is i never had to face those days, where you are getting sick, you have no pills, no money and you are fucked. because those are the "epiphany" days when  a lot of people decide to clean up. and i never had a reason to want to. i just felt it was time, i was too old for that shit and it had been going on too long.