I think you've had some kind of emotional dissorder for the last year, that combined with the heavy drinking it's really affecting the way you act/ people perceive you. You've been a member for a long time but your attention whorish behavior is relatively new. You should really seek help shizzo. Not trying to give you shit, which I've done before, this time I'm serious. You can be really annoying on the internet but you're not a bad guy at all. Good luck.