I was bulking 235lbs with a full belly in that pic and it was probably a year ago. Meanwhile I am shredded right now when I am not trying to bulk but that doesn’t count lol
No, you aren't. You really need to stop saying this. You're lean, dude -- almost ripped. You're leaner than most people who actually train.
But shredded! GTFO. Sadly, we've seen your ass :-/ No striations there, none in your pecs, no deep groves in your delts, precious little separation in those weak legs, smooth hamstrings...
I almost hate pointing out the obvious to you because it's clear you're having a midlife crisis. You need a shrink, not Getbig. You'll never find validation here, Brian. Continuing to fight the tide here is probably as bad for you as that goofy vaping.