Last december I suddenly got 10/10 pain in my stomach very suddenly. Screamed like an idiot in my apartment until paramedics came 40 minutes later, neighbors were knocking to see wtf was going on, embarrassing. Acute pancreatitis. Usually it's caused by alcohol, without checking I think in like 90% of cases. Although I love rec drugs, don't have the budget to really do a lot of them them though, but I haven't really drank alcohol in 20 years, believe it or not. They took that alcohol test that shows if you drink and I was negative. Then they hypothesized it was caused by gallbladder stones, images showed a few small ones. They recommended gallbladder removal. I hesitated and I'd read that the drug bodybuilders use for liver protection TUDCA or UDCA which they use more in medicine. Suggested to doc and he immediately wrote a years script. But then I had further attacks and so I went through the surgery a few months ago. But I still have severe stomach and upper back pains periodically; I'm actually on a hospital bed right now since I had terrible pain last night. They say they don't think I have pancreatitis as such right now. I had 3 cysts on my pancreas instead a few months ago and new images shows there's one small cyst that seems to be self-destroying. I have this fluid IV in my arm after which I can go home. Some drugs can cause pancreatitis, like the Ozempic and looking at lists I see estrogen as listed as one too. So there might be a PED connection, hard to say. I'm playing witch doctor and taking mega dosed melatonin and methylene blue and other antioxidants that may protect the pancreas. Exogenous insulin too to theoretically take some load off the organ, plus it's an antioxidant as well. Repeated pancreatitis damages the pancreas which then leads to diabetes.
I went 3 weeks with agonizing pain before I went to the ER......the ER doc told me I was crazy and must have a high tolerance for pain to last that long suffering like I was.......I kept thinking it would go away but I knew I was kidding myself........I was just chickenshit as I had never had any type of surgery before.
He then told me I had Pancreatic Cancer........I am now a Diabetic and I have to take Pancreatic Enzymes called Creon with everything that I eat.
there was a few nights I stayed up all night and day cuz I thought if I slept that I would never wake up again.
I`m always in pain even though I had the "Whipple Procedure" surgery in late July....................
...one of the most complex abdominal surgeries that a person can have......they literally have to rearrange your insides.
the fuckers removed a huge portion of my Pancreas,my Duodenum,some of my intestines,my Bile Duct,my Gall Bladder,some Lymph Nodes,and a small portion of my stomach...........as a result I`m all fucked up and have a hard time digesting fats.
It takes 6 months to a year to make a full recovery if you last that long........been dealing with this for 19 months now.
I looked fucking great at 69,now at 70 I look like a shell of a man.
Sorry about the self pity pussified type rant but this has impacted the quality of my life in a huge way,both mentally as well as physically.
I contemplate suicide a lot lately but fuck it,it`s only pain.

I always say that I woudn`t wish this disease on my worst enemy then I think of Hankins and just smile. LOL
