The love of a good woman.....
Yeah. She is hyper loyal and when she packed her shit and headed out the door, i was so stubborn and fucked up I actually told her to GTFO several timrs.
As soon as i calmed down and woke up the next morning alone, it hit me like a ton bricks.... i had fucked up. Badly. She didnt want to come back. She was ready to get a divorce. But we talked and she reluctantly came back.
Our relationship has since become rock solid since i realized how much i really loved her and took her for granted, and she realized how important she was to me when i kicked a $200/day heroin habit and was puking and shitting my guts out for weeks, amd havent touched it since.
I see a lot of parallels between Taylor's life and mine. Hell we were even both fat kids that lost a bunch of weight before we got crazy woth drugs.
Hes far more impulsive and less disciplined than i was though. I was always more humble and quite than he was. I hit it fast and hard and burned out quickly, but it seems like Taylor would swing all over the place even worse than I did. He was suddenly balls deep in BB, then balls deep in drugs, then balls deep in his asshole, then suddenly balls deep in god.
I hope he can level himself out and find some kind of balance... that 'all or nothing, go big or go home' attitude is a large part of the issues i had, i had no balance in my life. When i wasnt obsesswd with something that was giving me mental stimulation, i was lost and bored. Its dangerous. He needs to balance out his life and be able to focus on the important things instead of the constant 'instant gratification'.