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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
No more eggnog for you.
1-800-suicideprevention
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You know what you have to do.
Let's just go ahead and get it over with.
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IF you were ever deployed before (I served in 2 wars), ANYTHING you "encounter" in civilian life is sort of numb/bland. Yeah, things still hurt and there is loss
but the bottom line is it isn't as instantly terrifying...
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IF you were ever deployed before (I served in 2 wars), ANYTHING you "encounter" in civilian life is sort of numb/bland. Yeah, things still hurt and there is loss
but the bottom line is it isn't as instantly terrifying...
I can imagine that would cause a different experience to what I'm describing, I can imagine the terror of recalling bodies being blown apart and friends screaming in agony as they die in front of you, but the sadness of losing someone you love and knowing you will probably never have them again is another side of the coin.
No more eggnog for you.
1-800-suicideprevention
I am not close to being suicidal, no matter how low I get I always find a way to claw my way back up and etch some kind of fuckin life for myself in this world until circumstances come around and try to push me back down again, but I refuse to accept defeat by the hands of fate. "Have no faith or belief whatsoever in those who doubt you for your greatness will silence them all" quote Ultimate Warrior.
;D
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I can imagine that would cause a different experience to what I'm describing, I can imagine the terror of recalling bodies being blown apart and friends screaming in agony as they die in front of you, but the sadness of losing someone you love and knowing you will probably never have them again is another side of the coin.
I am not close to being suicidal, no matter how low I get I always find a way to claw my way back up and etch some kind of fuckin life for myself in this world until circumstances come around and try to push me back down again, but I refuse to accept defeat by the hands of fate. "Have no faith or belief whatsoever in those who doubt you for your greatness will silence them all" quote Ultimate Warrior.
;D
Self pep-talks on getbig don't typically achive the desired result.
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
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a young Howard in the making.
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Btw... You're 26. When I was 26, I was in prison.
It doesn't get easier.
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
Ditto :D
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
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Life is hard method but it does get worse. Wait till you're mid 30s and still unmarried and can't even imagine a scenario where you will ever go on another date again. And even if you do get a date with a woman also in her mid 30s you have the realization that A) There is clearly something wrong with her to be that age and still not married. B) by mid 30s she has already taken over 100 dicks and it is unlikely yours will be very impressive.
You mentioned exes huh. Places you've been, things you've done; well in your 30s all the Women you dated in your 20s and you still have some feelings for them are all married now.
Oh yeah, One more thing, your bank account much smaller than you anticipated it being at this stage of your life.
Cheers. :'(
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I started coming to this realization at about 27 or so. Your face starts to look a bit different, you realize this ride isn't going to last forever. It can become depressing but you can either get busy living or get busy dying bro. Make it the former.
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i'm 28 and on top of the world
fucking prostitutes raw no pulling out
building huge arms
licking prostitutes buttholes
taking steroids
crushing heavy ass weight in the gym
dating a virgin who is 7 and a half years younger than me (and 18 years younger than my ex) and i going to take her innocence soon. her traps and ass are breath taking really.
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
this, twenty fucking six, get to fuck...
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I started coming to this realization at about 27 or so. Your face starts to look a bit different, you realize this ride isn't going to last forever. It can become depressing but you can either get busy living or get busy dying bro. Make it the former.
Well said. I also feel that as you get older you fear death less and less. When I'm 70 I doubt I will fear it at all. I'll be ready to go. When I was younger my mortality freaked me out. Not so much now.
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Well said. I also feel that as you get older you fear death less and less. When I'm 70 I doubt I will fear it at all. I'll be ready to go. When I was younger my mortality freaked me out. Not so much now.
i dont fear death because heaven awaits for me
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Jesus 26 my life was just getting started ???
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i dont fear death because heaven awaits for me
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yes man
the world is truly yours when you are a man who loves black pussy and has some coins to drop on them
those are some fine honeys
wuld raw dog no pulling out
would eat buttholes
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yes man
the world is truly yours when you are a man who loves black pussy and has some coins to drop on them
those are some fine honeys
wuld raw dog no pulling out
would eat buttholes
The blacks I find most attractive are Ethiopian because they don't have the wide Dexter Jackson air sucking nose, and overall they just have better faces like a white woman but with chocolate skin.
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The blacks I find most attractive are Ethiopian because they don't have the wide Dexter Jackson air sucking nose, and overall they just have better faces like a white woman but with chocolate skin.
there is nothing wrong with brutal negro features if she has big DSL and a massive ass
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these are good times to live in
in the 50s there were only 250 million people in africa, now 1,2 billion people
lots more black women around these days, lots more!
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these are good times to live in
in the 50s there were only 250 million people in africa, now 1,2 billion people
lots more black women around these days, lots more!
i agree
nowadays you can even find a ton of fine black honeys in thailand
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i agree
nowadays you can even find a ton of fine black honeys in thailand all over fucking Europe in swarms.
fixed
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fixed
that has been the case for at least 1 or 2 decades
thailand is relatively new trend according to my findings
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i'm 28 and on top of the world
fucking prostitutes raw no pulling out
building huge arms
licking buttholes
taking steroids
Pushing ass in the gym
dating a virgin who is 7 and a half (and 18 years younger than my ex) and i going to take her innocence soon. her traps and ass are breath taking really.
Sounds like you're killin it.
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Sounds like you're killin it.
In all seriousness it's good to have you back on here posting.
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In all seriousness it's good to have you back on here posting.
you can thank me for that
i made a thread about what happened to him and then he magically appeared
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LWB's personal dream...The 3 Spooges?
Regardless of color, they are not at all good looking.
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
I understand exactly what you are talking about. My advice to you is to move to another city and start fresh.
You are young bro, fuck the past, look forward to that ocean of pussy and then go swim in it. Women are the hottest and the sluttiest that they've ever been.
We are living in the golden age of pussy. Rejoice!
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you can thank me for that
i made a thread about what happened to him and then he magically appeared
I henceforth render thanks upon you as well friend.
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
Wait til you're closing in on 50.
That's some loss, memories and regrets to ponder over.
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you can thank me for that
i made a thread about what happened to him and then he magically appeared
Was magic.
I don't lurk. You know that. I was busy detoxing, few vacations to big bear and mexico, breaking up with the med student in a big fight cpl days before Xmas.. Relapsing.. Doing business.. Blowing close to $80k on heroin.. Another breakup (Bitch who I gave more diamonds n jewlery than any other girl & the reason I went to rehab cheated on my while I was in rehab).. More business.. Paying an ex gfs rent, replacing her a.c. unit, food etc.. And another trip to rehab...
Just happened to check in that day.
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Was magic.
I don't lurk. You know that. I was busy detoxing, few vacations to big bear and mexico, breaking up with the med student in a big fight cpl days before Xmas.. Relapsing.. Doing business.. Blowing close to $80k on heroin.. Another breakup (Bitch who I gave more diamonds n jewlery than any other girl & the reason I went to rehab cheated on my while I was in rehab).. More business.. Paying an ex gfs rent, replacing her a.c. unit, food etc.. And another trip to rehab...
Just happened to check in that day.
good to see you are doing well, friend
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We are living in the golden age of pussy. Rejoice!
Really? An age where even average women have so many options you have to hope on blind luck and have to settle with whatever pussy comes first - if anything ever?
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
Same here, I chuckled. You'll see that when you get close to pushing 50, family members (immediate family, aunts, uncles, etc) will start dropping like flies. Grandparents will have been gone years ago, and just a distant memory. Your grade school teachers will be dropping like flies as well.
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
haha same here. 26, fuck Im double that. Method seems like quite the nancy boy
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Really? An age where even average women have so many options you have to hope on blind luck and have to settle with whatever pussy comes first - if anything ever?
You're right, I forgot that not every guy has the tools to attract bitches that I have. Sorry guys, looks like some of you are gonna have to use the Cosby method of dating.
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Lol wait till you are 35. I just turned 30 and I am still making the best of the time I have, 26 is nothing. When you get closer to 40 you will see twice the amount of loss.
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Ahh, savahna mamas! Can cook, kill a lion and fuck the shit out of you.
Love em.
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STOPPED reading when it said they were 26.
LMAO
I'm 28 and even I thought the same. We're still young.
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haha same here. 26, fuck Im double that. Method seems like quite the nancy boy
Still, you CAN have experienced a lot of misery and loss even at the age of 26, even earlier in some cases, where you see family-members and loved ones pass away due to certain circumstances and has lived a life with lot of loss.
But yes, normally it should at least have beeen 40+ years of life to have experienced most of life's tragedies.
For us in richer countries, having a loved one die in our arms happen not as often as in those in war-torn developing countries.
Still, the grief and loss is the same.
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you won't care about these girls from your past as soon as they they look old and fat, which could happen overnight once they are 30 or so
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you won't care about these girls from your past as soon as they they look old and fat, which could happen overnight once they are 30 or so
9 out of 10 will get old and fat. I went to my 30 year high school reunion, and the majority of hotties back in high school are now worn out wrecks, that you wouldn't even give a second glance to.
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
Nothing wrong with reminiscing about the past. Just dont live there. Persevere and look ahead
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If you love her that much then give her a call and go. But if the relationship was really so wonderful then it wouldn't have ended.
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
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You spent several billion years not caring before you were born, you will spend infinity not caring after you die, you are on this earth for a mere nanosecond in the grand scheme of things, nobody MAYBE apart from your children, if you have them, will care when you die.Its really best to treat life as lightly as possible.
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Ahh, savahna mamas! Can cook, kill a lion and fuck the shit out of you.
Love em.
me too
these women have many fine qualities
only problem is they cant be trusted
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what really matters in life is building big arms and getting black women to comment on them, feel and grope them and bang your chest muscles then let you hit it raw no pulling out
THOSE are the moments that reaally count in life
you think i'm joking but i'm absolutely not
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We all know you're not joking that's what makes it so pathetic.
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We all know you're not joking that's what makes it so pathetic.
you've been brain washed by feminism
bred to be nothing but a provider to some cookie cutter 6/10 female who wants a husband a house and children
you dont even have the brain power to question yourself
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you've been brain washed by feminism
bred to be nothing but a provider to some cookie cutter 6/10 female who wants a husband a house and children
you dont even have the brain power to question yourself
Better than being nothing but a receded haired provider for 1/10 black prostitutes.
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Better than being nothing but a receded haired provider for 1/10 black prostitutes.
the prostitutes i fuck blow away the wives and gf's of all you cucks
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the prostitutes i fuck blow away the wives and gf's of all you cucks
They all LLS brah!
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
I just noticed and read this OP thread. Great topic.
I can relate, big time.
One of my most recent was right after the death of my Mom last year.
She had lived in the same place since my parents divorced in 1979.
We were staying at her place to be with her during the final days.
Once she had passed, the funeral home came and got her body.
My wife and I needed to get out, relax and eat something after that ordeal.
A couple hours later we returned and it was pretty late at night by then.
I paused, looked at the small porch and doorway area when it hit me.
I'd been coming to this same place to visit my mom for the past 35 years.
Now she was gone and I'd never be back here again to visit her.
That was a tough , emotional experience for me and it still chokes me up.
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Life is hard method but it does get worse. Wait till you're mid 30s and still unmarried and can't even imagine a scenario where you will ever go on another date again. And even if you do get a date with a woman also in her mid 30s you have the realization that A) There is clearly something wrong with her to be that age and still not married. B) by mid 30s she has already taken over 100 dicks and it is unlikely yours will be very impressive.
You mentioned exes huh. Places you've been, things you've done; well in your 30s all the Women you dated in your 20s and you still have some feelings for them are all married now.
Oh yeah, One more thing, your bank account much smaller than you anticipated it being at this stage of your life.
Cheers. :'(
No - in your 30s you are single you know what trash is - you seek out the best for yourself in all forms of life and you eliminate dumb bitches with kids that suck up cash because they can't make decent amounts
Stay single
KEEP UR CREDIT GOOD
buy property
Save $
Take mad gh
Stop drinking , smoke good hash
=30s of gold
All these depressed dudes copped out and ran too much test - crashed , suicidial , prob drinkers or do pills
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I just noticed and read this OP thread. Great topic.
I can relate, big time.
One of my most recent was right after the death of my Mom last year.
She had lived in the same place since my parents divorced in 1979.
We were staying at her place to be with her during the final days.
Once she had passed, the funeral home came and got her body.
My wife and I needed to get out, relax and eat something after that ordeal.
A couple hours later we returned and it was pretty late at night by then.
I paused, looked at the small porch and doorway area when it hit me.
I'd been coming to this same place to visit my mom for the past 35 years.
Now she was gone and I'd never be back here again to visit her.
That was a tough , emotional experience for me and it still chokes me up.
Howard,
Again, I am very sorry for your loss! Hang in there.
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you've been brain washed by feminism
bred to be nothing but a provider to some cookie cutter 6/10 female who wants a husband a house and children
you dont even have the brain power to question yourself
I lived that life, but didn't have to pay prostitutes to fuck me. Maybe when you hit 30 you will change your tune, or not.
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I lived that life, but didn't have to pay prostitutes to fuck me. Maybe when you hit 30 you will change your tune, or not.
i'll be 30 in february 2018
that's pretty close
but this chic i'm seeing says she wants to procreate with me in about 4-5 years from now
so maybe it will all come together when i'm about 33-34 ???
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Howard,
Again, I am very sorry for your loss! Hang in there.
Thanks so much for the kind words but she passed 13 mos ago in Nov of 2015.
It was quite meaningful to be with her during her final week.
She saw me come into this life and I saw her depart. Pretty special stuff.
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No - in your 30s you are single you know what trash is - you seek out the best for yourself in all forms of life and you eliminate dumb bitches with kids that suck up cash because they can't make decent amounts
Stay single
KEEP UR CREDIT GOOD
buy property
Save $
Take mad gh
Stop drinking , smoke good hash
=30s of gold
All these depressed dudes copped out and ran too much test - crashed , suicidial , prob drinkers or do pills
Good solid advice.
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Yes. In my 20's and early 30's, life was great. Now, it is just very different. Remember, on average, men do not know themselves until they are around 38 or so. In my mid 30's now and watched my wife of 15 years succumb to cancer after an almost 2 year battle with it. You tend to look at life differently after watching someone who was healthy and vibrant turn into someone you no longer recognize. On top of all that, she had a miscarriage with our twins during a healthy interlude (she beat stage 3 then succumbed to stage 4 months later).
I no longer look at frivolous things in a serious light anymore. I run my own start up business and live life as ethically and morally as I can.
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Yes. In my 20's and early 30's, life was great. Now, it is just very different. Remember, on average, men do not know themselves until they are around 38 or so. In my mid 30's now and watched my wife of 15 years succumb to cancer after an almost 2 year battle with it. You tend to look at life differently after watching someone who was healthy and vibrant turn into someone you no longer recognize. On top of all that, she had a miscarriage with our twins during a healthy interlude (she beat stage 3 then succumbed to stage 4 months later).
I no longer look at frivolous things in a serious light anymore. I run my own start up business and live life as ethically and morally as I can.
Tough stuff but thanks for sharing.
I saw my older sis get taken down with cancer that spread thru her body, 5 years ago.
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Yes. In my 20's and early 30's, life was great. Now, it is just very different. Remember, on average, men do not know themselves until they are around 38 or so. In my mid 30's now and watched my wife of 15 years succumb to cancer after an almost 2 year battle with it. You tend to look at life differently after watching someone who was healthy and vibrant turn into someone you no longer recognize. On top of all that, she had a miscarriage with our twins during a healthy interlude (she beat stage 3 then succumbed to stage 4 months later).
I no longer look at frivolous things in a serious light anymore. I run my own start up business and live life as ethically and morally as I can.
Wow mate you been through some heavy shit.
Sorry for your losses mate
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The first time I was really sad, and I mean REALLY sad, was when I realized my parents are getting old.
It happened when I was visiting them and it hit home so hard that I had to go to my room, aka jerkoff shrine, and sit back. It was such an empty feeling that bites your stomach... a dull void which engulfs you and you realize your ineptitude to elongate their lives.
Years later my father died of cancer because he always fed on some shit that was bothering him. Luckily he "only" suffered for a few months and had been of excellent health for the preceding 79 years - he still had all of his teeth when on his deathbed.
The morning he died I woke up due to him breathing heavily - I instantly knew that the reaper had come and hurried outside to sit next to him. He folded in my arms and when I heard steps from the first aid people approaching I withdrew to my room because it was such an intimate moment that I had to be alone. I was happy that he died and was able to find peace while he still could move and not wither away like a monetized vegetable.
He visited me once in my dreams and after I woke up my chest region was all warm and fuzzy like somebody had heated it.
Despite all the perceived drama and trauma never forget that it all is just an experience and you're here to learn and resolve things.
The End :D
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The first time I was really sad, and I mean REALLY sad, was when I realized my parents are getting old.
It happened when I was visiting them and it hit home so hard that I had to go to my room, aka jerkoff shrine, and sit back. It was such an empty feeling that bites your stomach... a dull void which engulfs you and you realize your ineptitude to elongate their lives.
Years later my father died of cancer because he always fed on some shit that was bothering him. Luckily he "only" suffered for a few months and had been of excellent health for the preceding 79 years - he still had all of his teeth when on his deathbed.
The morning he died I woke up due to him breathing heavily - I instantly knew that the reaper had come and hurried outside to sit next to him. He folded in my arms and when I heard steps from the first aid people approaching I withdrew to my room because it was such an intimate moment that I had to be alone. I was happy that he died and was able to find peace while he still could move and not wither away like a monetized vegetable.
He visited me once in my dreams and after I woke up my chest region was all warm and fuzzy like somebody had heated it.
Despite all the perceived drama and trauma never forget that it all is just an experience and you're here to learn and resolve things.
The End :D
That's as deep, special, personal and meaningful an experience as any human will have.
Thanks for sharing.
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Yes. In my 20's and early 30's, life was great. Now, it is just very different. Remember, on average, men do not know themselves until they are around 38 or so. In my mid 30's now and watched my wife of 15 years succumb to cancer after an almost 2 year battle with it. You tend to look at life differently after watching someone who was healthy and vibrant turn into someone you no longer recognize. On top of all that, she had a miscarriage with our twins during a healthy interlude (she beat stage 3 then succumbed to stage 4 months later).
I no longer look at frivolous things in a serious light anymore. I run my own start up business and live life as ethically and morally as I can.
Sorry for your loss and best of luck for the future.
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You spent several billion years not caring before you were born, you will spend infinity not caring after you die, you are on this earth for a mere nanosecond in the grand scheme of things, nobody MAYBE apart from your children, if you have them, will care when you die.Its really best to treat life as lightly as possible.
Great post.......
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i'm 32 28 and on top of the world
fucking prostitutes and other chicks raw no pulling out
building huge arms
licking prostitutes buttholes
taking steroids
crushing heavy ass weight in the gym
dating a virgin who is 7 and a half years younger than me (and 18 years younger than my ex) and i going to take her innocence soon. her traps and ass are breath taking really.
Here's me !😃
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Here's me !😃
Ok fess up and tell us which guy had the sweetest fart locker to lick?
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Op sounds like an emo fag.
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You are 26 and you know about getting older???
SHUT THE FUCK UP BOY!
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As I get older, 26 now I really feel the accumulation of lost loved ones and lovers starting to build, I often sit back home alone sometimes and recall all the good times I've had and the bad and really get overtaken by nostalgia tainted with sadness, anyone else get this feeling?
I walk by places I've been with women I loved and remember moments of the past and see them play out infront of me and it's borderline haunting, one of the hardest things about getting older seems to be this gradual accumulation of memories which you have to carry on your shoulders for the rest of your life.
Anyone else ever get this feeling? I'm starting to understand why some people feel the need to drop everything's hing and move to another part of the country to get away from the past and the memories. Even effects your ability to be happy when your in the same situation you were in the past in terms of the stages of a relationship etc... Does it just mean that I need to find someone better than what's come before to forget everything? feels impossible though since I had someone who was one in a million and lost them primarily due to circumstances beyond my control (location/distance). Maybe It's even harder when you have nothing lasting like children to show for it but instead just memories....
Even my fucking bed has memories, of having sex numerous times in a day and laying together laughing with joy/ecstasy afterwards now the silence of the room and the empty space next to me gives me fuckin chills. Yes I have had/currently have other women since these past long term ones and temporarily I forget everything while having sex and so on but when I have a night alone in my house all the other memories rush back into my mind and fuck me up badly.
You're 26 and aren't actually a dickhead anymore, you'll meet a few more serious gfs and have marriage in the future too
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most hot white girls will die from drugs or some bullshit cancer or rapid health decline by 32
its best to find a girl that you can control.. women need alot of guidance or they shut down mentally n physically
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most hot white girls will die from drugs or some bullshit cancer or rapid health decline by 32
its best to find a girl that you can control.. women need alot of guidance or they shut down mentally n physically
100% spot on Neeg, well said
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most hot white girls will die from drugs or some bullshit cancer or rapid health decline by 32
its best to find a girl that you can control.. women need alot of guidance or they shut down mentally n physically
Spoke like a pimp.