It's strange having taken the time off I can almost see things with a different perspective. I certainly don't feel the way this guy does anymore. I am not worried about my weight. I am not worried about blowing back up. The body dysmorphia is practically gone. I don't feel the need to compete or chase lifting goals. I think I would rather pursue other things. I would rather go to law school.
I know it is sacrilege
We told you all this last summer and you agreed at the time already.
You think you are cured by trying to shift your mental illness into a new direction.
You are an ill man and this isn’t just going to disappear as a sudden maturation at 46 or 47.
Drop the lawyer delusion and try to get the menial job you can actually handle.