i mean it would make sense to be scared
but to think they cant afford it is ludicrous
Why are you worried about buying steroids? You're wasting way too much time and energy on this.
If you're going to use them, use them. If not, then don't.
Justify your decision, one way or other, then go to work. Either way, food still needs to be ingested; weights have to be lifted; and (if you plan to compete) cardio needs to be done.