update with this lady friend
yesterday I got angry with her that she was talking to and giving attention to another guy, and yes I was jealous, but I was more angry that she could put another guy above me coz I'm much better than him in many ways, so..... my fucking narcissism absolutely ruins my potential to have relationships
I'm working on this through psychotherapy with a very good psychotherapist so hopefully I can escape this goddamn narcissism
I used to think that it was funny and cool to be a narcissist but its not