Benders

[dr.chimps]

3 days drinking in Vegas.

3!? Hold my beah.

[CalvinH]

Walked out of my hotel room Thursday night came back only to change and shower until Sunday when I packed.
Fell Asleep before takeoff and woke up back in NYC.
It was right after 9/11 so airlines were checking everything,really tearing bags apart so none of my friends brought any party favors
Strictly a booze trip which is right up my alley anyway

[Twaddle]

[Jamaal]

My "benders" would last months At a time. I never drank as a "kid" and really knew nothing about alcohol or alcohol withdrawal or hangovers when I started drinking. So when i started it was just to help me sleep since i had insomnia still from kicking Nubian in 02, so I was just self-medicating rather than drinking to have a good time and enjoy it. I can actually think of maybe 3 or 4 times in my life that I actually drank for "fun".. I don't think ive ever had a "hangover" cuz i would always start the next day with a shot and would continue to drink all day. That shit would build up to 2L vodka/day everyday without ever "getting drunk" so until I stopped drinking, nobody even knew indrank, or drank heavy. When me and my ex would go to a friends house for a bbq I would have to do triple shots for each one of their shots to keep up and have the same effect they had from one shot LOL. Or when the company owners of the fundraising office Iran wood invite all the employees out to longboard Bar and Grill in Pacific Beach in San Diego I would have to joke and make sure they brought their credit card because if they're buying I'm probably going to be drinking $300 worth of shots just by myself.. although very often because I don't want anybody to know I drink. For instance I remember one time we got a huge shipment of envelopes it had to be unloaded from the back of a truck and carried up to the second floor office and I'm getting paid for this right? joking. And the order says sure I'll buy you a six pack of beer and i reply "nah I'm good. I don't drink" lol .. Was kinda accepted in that office though since a good 85% of my employees where drug addicts of some sort, or college kids on summer vacation who would get hammered all day at the beach and then show up to work Sunburn and still drunk or high on LSD or Coke at 5 p.m. & so long as they could read the scripts and not curse on the phones and get sales, we didn't give a shit. Lol... This last time the week before I went to rehab I actually had a seizure from alcohol withdrawal two weekends in a row both at my dad's house both right in front of my dad. The first was like a partial seizure where I could kinda control my fall forward but was unable to stand up and had to crawl on my belly like a snake (couldn't support myself on my hands and knees) through both living rooms a hallway and office into the garage and need help getting into the back seat of the SUV and needed a wheelchair to get into the ER.. the second one was a full-on grand mal seizure and I feel straight backwards like a 2x4 falling over smashing the back of my head on his tile floor spraying blood everywhere into a full-on grand mal seizure with foam coming out of my mouth and shit and woke up to an EMT standing over me next to a big yellow stretcher. Lol... Embarrassing as hell. That was my third concussion in about five weeks & kinda fucked up my memory of the previous 2 months. Lol

Whoa.

A lot of questions -

1) how many months? (Concern regarding withdrawal)
2) did you taper back when quitting? Or went from 2L/day to 0?
3) how on earth could you go months at a time drinking 2L a day?

[Coach is Back!]

80s for me good times

You remember the 80's? Impressive, I don't. lol

[dr.chimps]

You remember the 80's? Impressive, I don't. lol

Spent the whole decade coked up. We get it. No wonder you want to deny people.

[Coach is Back!]

Spent the whole decade coked up. We get it. No wonder you want to deny people.

I'm 25 years clean but there's no denying you're an idiot. First Killary and now your sources for your political info have dried up and no longer relevant. Good to apart of the "Intellectual community" isn't it?

[oldtimer1]

I'm 25 years clean but there's no denying you're an idiot. First Killary and now your sources for your political info have dried up and no longer relevant. Good to apart of the "Intellectual community" isn't it?

Is 25 years clean include steroids or they are not counted as recreational drugs? Inquiring minds want to know. I drank many days a week hard for 6 years. Realized it was destroying my health and cut back severely.  Now I still sometimes go a little off the rails but nothing like those wake up every day sick and shaking.

[Shizzo]

Walked out of my hotel room Thursday night came back only to change and shower until Sunday when I packed.
Fell Asleep before takeoff and woke up back in NYC.
It was right after 9/11 so airlines were checking everything,really tearing bags apart so none of my friends brought any party favors
Strictly a booze trip which is right up my alley anyway

I bet there were multiple things up your alley that weekend.

[robcguns]

That more than 5,000 calories a night just from beer

Odd thing is I never gained a pound.When i was doing this I was 260 consistently.I prob was peeing about 30 times a night though.

[Shizzo]

Odd thing is I never gained a pound.When i was doing this I was 260 consistently.I prob was peeing about 30 times a night though.

You have also never gained any credibility either.

[Jamaal]

Odd thing is I never gained a pound.When i was doing this I was 260 consistently.I prob was peeing about 30 times a night though.

How many gallons was that roughly? Quite the stomach ability...

[robcguns]

How many gallons was that roughly? Quite the stomach ability...

3.2 gallons

[dr.chimps]

I'm 25 years clean but there's no denying you're an idiot. First Killary and now your sources for your political info have dried up and no longer relevant. Good to apart of the "Intellectual community" isn't it?

You want to rule the world and you can't even put ONE sentence together!? MAGA 

[MORTALCOIL]

I'm 25 years clean but there's no denying you're an idiot. First Killary and now your sources for your political info have dried up and no longer relevant. Good to apart of the "Intellectual community" isn't it?

The irony. You've redefined the entire concept and brought it to new heights (or depths).

[Jamaal]

Odd thing is I never gained a pound.When i was doing this I was 260 consistently.I prob was peeing about 30 times a night though.

Epic metabolism. Do you still drink on occasion? Drugs?

[Coach is Back!]

You want to rule the world and you can't even put ONE sentence together!? MAGA 

The only ones that want to rule the world are leftists like yourself with your "globalization" bullshit.

[robcguns]

Epic metabolism. Do you still drink on occasion? Drugs?

Last time I had a few beers was about a year ago.I have a glass of johnny walker blue every now and again but nothing in the last 6 months.i was eating a marijuana gummy every night for the last year but stopped a month ago.

[tres_taco_combo]

What did you "figure out"?

well...


i pretty much realized the following (all common sense) and I applied them

1. cut out all negative people
2. be very specific with your goals/dreams/ambitions
2a. in order to achieve those, you need to tell people "no" and do what you need to do
2b. hire professional help to get there (trainers, mentors etc etc)
3. volunteer work - do it. i do it 2 hours a week and its money
4. you are responsible for your own actions/no victim mentality
5. 80% of success is just showing up
6. life a diverse life with many different chapters. learn to change/adapt always
7. take risk
8. be a lover
9. look at problems as challenges.


what i did in those several months off, i read tons of books (mainly philosophy and psychology) and applied what i read. i didnt really drive, leave home date, or hang out with people. I was burned out (life was good, but hit a wall) and needed time off to sort shit out. took me months to map it out, cut out bad people, time wasting shit, be specific.

best books
"the one thing" by gary keller -

summary. find the "one thing" that drives you and apply all your time/energy and resources to achieve that.  to achieve access your life cannot be too balanced. learn to say no

for me? I have 2 things in the next 2-4 years  (sales and bodybuilding) so i train my ass off and work my ass off and apply all my resources to those. goals IFBB pro in mens classic and average 10 deals a month. so i put most of efforts into those 2.  then in a few years create a new chapter in my life


Outliers Malcolm Gladwell
summary 10,000 hour rule . takes a tons of effort to get to the top. 10,000 hour rule (favorite all time book) the compound effect

Seneca - "shortness of life" book is ancient philosophy -

summary - life isnt that short, it is quite long, but most people waste it away being mediocre, hanging out with shity people.  you have an ample amount of time to accomplish great things, dont waste it

marcus aurelius - you are responsible for own actions, dont let dumb shit get in the way of the big picture. dont play the victim card - be a stoic

the slight edge by jeff olson - success comes in winning the day, its consistent work flow, little wins add up to big wins.


no i am not special, just give it my best effort and cut back on negatives

[ESFitness]

Whoa.

A lot of questions -

1) how many months? (Concern regarding withdrawal)
2) did you taper back when quitting? Or went from 2L/day to 0?
3) how on earth could you go months at a time drinking 2L a day?

6-12 at least of drinking

Withdrawal would last about a week. The best withdrawal was the first time quitting. Librium works great. After that Librium was Wayyy to weak and I needed ativan.

Not much taper.. I couldn't taper without withdrawal. Of be in withdrawal with a BAC of .36 which meant if be well above .40 all day every day.

I just built up a tolerance. Was nevernstumbling drunk and nobody knew or could tell I drank until I told them I stopped.

Like I said, the last time I went to rehab I had 2 seizures 7 days apart.. a seizure on a Saturday then I went to the hospital was on had a van for Sunday and Monday and drank maybe Tuesday Wednesday Thursday stopped on a Friday cold turkey and then seizure Saturday afternoon and in rehab by Monday. They didn't give me a take home script for ativan the 2nd time so I drank a little sun day, and was told by the rehab people to drink until I got to rehab so I didntnhave a sezuire on the  plane... Got to rehab and was in withdrawal so bad they called the ambulance within 5minutes. Heardbfrom a good 8-10people that when they first saw mentheynthoughtbi was gonna die. Lol.. Within 2-3days I looked like normal.. In was so dehydrated and my veins were still so shot out that in the ER they had to use a vein in the bottom of my foot to start an IV and I told them just forget about the IV for the Ativan just give me the Ativan in my shoulder intramuscular so they did.

For alcohol withdrawal Ativan or benzos. Is an absolute must. And after maybe 10-14days of benzos you can switch over to baclofen gabapentin and Clonidine 3x a day. Baclofen has been shown in studies to reduce alcohol cravings so I requested it to be put on that and the doctors there had not heard of it I couldn't fucking believe it. Lol