shift how is your faith? Are you semi-religious?
We all have been or will be at the point you are at atleast once. Some decide to deal with it and some don't and are unconscious or don't understand it and choose to ignore the feeling and some see this as a moment to do something about it. You should embrace this moment and reach out for guidance from your strong character and your faith to get you past these dire times. Not asking you to become a holy roller bible (or whatever) thumper, just confess your sins, problems, insecurities..etc in your faith and accept his/her mercy and forgiveness. The only thing left is for you to take things day by day and pray for serenity to accept what you don't understand and have the courage to work on yourself.
The funny thing about these times are you are probably like I was at like 90% full potential and just needed that extra kick to get that "it" or whatever I was missing BUT you don't seem to know what "it" is to complete you and make you whole. Turned out I needed to have a piece of mind in certain aspects of my life where I wanted to "understand what I couldn't control" Once I did that, I was all good man. You know who you are better than anyone on here or even your family, you just are at a stage where you are wondering where or how do you reach your full potential in life. Which direction should you go. This way or that way. I've been there.
The fact of the matter is you have to begin with you and what is surrounding you. Once you have been granted mercy the rest is up to you and you only. You have to avoid pessimistic (sp) negative people, try to surround yourself around optimistic people while you remain optimistic..in every single aspect in life...all corners bro.
Stay busy when you have down time. If you have to call a friend and take them to lunch to fill a slot when you aren't doing anything..do it. Clean your crib, get some new gear, don't lay around the house like a slob..throw on some gear turn the music on and enjoy, get a new supplement and work out harder. Sign up for competitions, 15k's whatever..just do something to compensate when you know you will have a lot of time to think.
It's a day by day process, but humble yourself and take the high road on EVERY situation in life from here on out and I promise you that full potential will come full circle through the grace of your superior of your religion of choice. The funny thing is you know what it is about you that you are holding inside and want to change, but you may feel like you will lose a part of yourself if you do. Go ahead and lose that part of yourself and everything along with it because that "it" is what's holding you back from coming full circle homie.
I could be way off here, but take what you can out of my words.
