When I visited France back in 1996, I picked up a copy of a French magazine that had pictures of a gruesome torture-murder scene that had actually been posted online (can't recall the URL right now).
It was sick, but I remember thinking, 'Wow, pretty cool' at the time. I was in the military at the time and wasn't really aware that human life had any value.
Tre, don't beat yourself up over it. Be glad you were able to cope and have since come to see the light.
Some guys have too rude an awakening over the disconnect military service can induce, and it can get pretty ugly.
If it makes ya feel any better, when I was a little girl, I never thought twice about stomping on an ant,
or lighting them up on the sidewalk with a magnifying glass.

We all get older & wiser thankfully.
