You were in junior high when your mom committed suicide?? WOW that must have been rough for you...
...cause you were used to a "new daddy" every night, and then you were put in a foster home.
You see, if you want to really own somebody, you have to hit them where it hurts. Not this junior high "your mother" and "you're gay" shit. You have to expose them, make their lives an open book--take away from them the one thing they crave: anonymity.
Yours was taken from you not long ago, I believe.