Temper, I will be pissing in a cup tomorrow and the urine will be sent off to Quest Diagnostics for testing. If that doesn't satisfy you that I am clean now, how about this - I just weighed myself at 195 pounds. At my last contest, the 2005 NPC New England, I was in roughly the same condition at 209 pounds. If I were still using AAS, why did I lose 14 pounds?
As far as why I look bigger - bodybuilding is an illusion. Though I never used insulin or GH, apparently regular steroids were all my gut needed to expand. At that 2005 show my waist was somewhere around 35-36 inches - pretty huge for a guy that's only 5-8 and 209 pounds. So I looked blocky and didn't have much of a V-taper. My waist is down to 32 inches now that I have dieted down and the drugs aren't bloating my midsection. So my taper and overall shape look much better. I look bigger even though I am quite certain that I am in fact a bit smaller.