Ah yes, "The Secret". Where in the "Law of Attraction" does it say its okay to boast about violating United States Law, specifically pertaining to the use and distribution of steroids?
My boy...you got it just a little bit WRONG...
And that is something I have to ALWAYS emphasize:
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WAS EVER INVOLVED IN DISTRIBUTION OF STEROIDS?
I was never even charged for distribution...After agents invaded Arnold Classic, questioned and subpoenaed dozens of people and IFBB pros..., my gym in Fullerton and my home town Temecula?
I was never charged for possession either - and that is after DEA agents searched my house inside out...
AFTER MONTHS OF INVESTIGATION - all I was accused of was THINKING OF POSSESSING SOME STEROIDS FOR PERSONAL USE!
It was explained to me that I could go to court and risk FELONY, JAIL TIME and up to $200 K in defense fees....if prosecutor in Iowa would be able to convince the jury that indeed I was thinking of using steroids for my 2003 Night Of the Championships competition...
They didn't need to prove any DISTRIBUTION - as there was NOT A SINGLE PIECE OF EVIDENCE for that...

They didn't need to prove POSSESSION - as there was not a single piece of evidence for that either

So what does that tell you?
But, as explained to me - I could take a MISDEMEANOR charge, no jail time, no felony on my record and only unsupervised probation - where I didn't even need to report to anyone...or I could take the risk and go to trial and risk that ANYTHING I said in my emails could be interpreted as THINKING OF POSSESSING.
Well, one email in particular was singled out by the prosecutor and it that email I am mentioning 2 Anabolics often used in contest preparation...which I was considering implementing in my program last 6 weeks.
I was not ordering...I was simply telling someone what was my plan for the upcoming contest.
So, no possession charges, not even attempt to possess...simply THINKING OF POSSESSING is what CONSPIRACY TO POSSESS FOR PERSONAL USE CHARGE means.
And that is what I am charged for.
I decided to accept the offer from the prosecutor - after consulting few people I highly value...and most importantly - my family.
So, my guilt is: I WAS THINKING OF POSSESSING ANABOLIC STEROIDS FOR PERSONAL USE!
Shame on me!
Now, if you are mentioning "Secret" as a meaning of life...I do live with "Secret" in mind ALL MY LIFE...I was raised that way...and proudly claim: I sleep soundly at night as I am living my life as I should - loving people in general, wishing them well, treating them exactly the way I want to be treated...and personally ACCEPTING NO LIMITATIONS AS A LIMITATION (thus 20 or more exercises/Coaches remark/ for the same body part simply means nothing but a number...) and believing that EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE...