Kieth, I understand that yours is a serious medical condition, but strangly you havn't healed in all these years! I'd say your constant negativity and shit is what's keeping it alive in your mind. You're always talking about your declining health. Always telling the story of your recovery struggles and of the bite itself. You think about it too much. And when you get defensive you often put up a shield of negativity: your leg and bad health and everything that's fucked in your life. Onlyme? No, man, we're all one.
Life is just a ride, brother man! Didn't ya know that? And remember that old, old saying. "The force of healing is from within."