Why does derek need money so bad, he does gay for pay? Maybe it is a dumb question, but couldn't he just get a job like most people?? ![Undecided :-\](http://www.getbig.com/boards/Smileys/classic/undecided.gif)
It's a mentality....which MANY bbers subscribe to. Especially those who think they will turn pro, or be the next "Arnold".
The smarter ones, manage to keep things in perspective, while continuing to pursue their bbing goals.