James,
For your own sake, please go away. Delete your 'Getbig' bookmark. Go to MuscularDevelopment.com or MuscleMayhem.com or Bodybuilding.com, just please please stay away from Getbig.
Getbig is not a site for wanna-be bodybuilders or beginners looking for help or support.
Getbig is for people who hate those with bigger muscles, love to mock the sick and dead, and gloat in other's misfortunes and weaknesses. With your 16-inch blazing guns putting most getbiggers to shame, your self-mutilation illness, and your obvious sensitivity, you are the last person on Earth who should be on Getbig.
Speaking for my fellow one or two concerned and compassionate Getbiggers, I urge you to walk away and NEVER look back. NOW!
Getbig is Rated 'R'. People under the age of 18 should not be admitted unless accompanied by a parent. Ron, please enforce this.