I'm not ashamed. I mean Lou is a fckin gorrilla, thus his nickname "Silverback".
I do kinda miss it though. I remember two moments distinctly from that time.
One was 4 weeks after my last show, a week before I tore my pec. I had competed at 171ish and was already 211 lbs, but this time I was still in decent shape (lower abs still in, glutes/hammies not fat yet). I remember I was wearing this green football jersey made of cotton, and my shoulders and traps were popping out and I was looking in the mirror brushing my teeth. I remember thinking "Oh my god, I look stupid". Like people would point and laugh in the mall and such. Weird.
The other was 3 days after that show, I was about 183 and still very very sharp. I got out of the shower and threw some boxer briefs on...my wife was calling for me. I came out of the bathroom and she just stopped and stared and then said "Honey, you look ridiculous. Jeesus..."
memories...