Lets see, all american wrestler, 2x national qualifier with good jits submits JC level wrestler with heavy hands who relies on his atheleticism and striking to wins fights in a non striking, submission grappling based sparring system. Is that about right? Where's the shame in that? You train hard, you will get tapped. If you are only concerned about not getting tapped, your game will stagnate. You will not improve in positions, and you will not look to attack, but rather defend.