Daddywaddy is getting smaller and weaker every time I see his photo. I hope he can still pull off his impressive back and leg development. He had great separation and mass in his quads. Separation was from the 5 mile runs and the mass was from his love and perseverance through hard front squat works, 60 sets+. The guy was eating tonnes of calories from ramen noodles and other goodies. Then he dieted down and it looked fantastic. I think he is over thinking and should return to his former "eat like a warrior to be a warrior" although its too late now. He must stop lifting those 40lbs dumbbells and get into a gym again. What happened to that motivation he had? Did he burn out? It was actually quite amazing what he was doing.
He needs to get off the drugs and let his internal drive come through. Yes, daddywaddy you need to show us why you are a 6'6" reptilian again. What seperates you from the pack? No, eating nothing all day and not training is not seperating you from anyone.
You don't have a great place to live, you don't have a steady relationship and you are certainly not rolling around in cash. You need to show us what makes you again. Come out of that drug-induced coma and realise that today is the day. Its time to stop 'waiting for the bus' so to speak.
Good luck John