Ive been BATMAN for almost a year now...
A super hero living in the dark...
Goin`thru soo much bullshit in my private life that it`s been ridiculous!
I`ve fucked-up big time and I`ve truly been knee deep into shit...
And just when I thought that things would stabilaze...
...when I really thought that the sun finnaly was shining...
IT ALL CRASHED DOWN ON ME AGAIN!
And even the love I had found that I really thought was pure & true
suddenly & totally unexpected turned away and went out of my life
just when the shit hit the fan & when I needed her the most...
So much for that golden future that she had promissed me! Ha!
What can I say but fuck it?
Ive been thru fire...
I have even more scars inside me than before now...
I`m even more rough around the edges now...
My nose is so broken that it just can`t brake no more now...
And my heart been so fucked-up that it just can`t get any more fucked now...
BUT then again...
Even if I`m not in one piece & hurting I`m still here!
My blood is still on fire & still running thru my veins!
I will NEVER grow bitter! Nah...I`m a DIE HARD!
And bitter aint my style!
I`m about to grab life by the balls & get what I deserve!
I`m DECIDING right here & NOW that my life will be GREAT from now on!
Like it was way back in the past...
Like it was before my best friends died on me...before my mother got sick
& before all my love was lost and was taken away from me...
Cuz I`ve learned alot this year...the hard way...
...and if all this shit is carma...we are more than even now!
I payed ALL my fucking dues now so STOP it!
Cuz really...
I`m a good guy that deserves better than Ive been thru lately...
And when it comes to this failed relationship I treated her
like a queen or a fuckin` godess and what did I get for that?
She aint worth me...NO...Im better off alone!
The next lady I meet I will choose so much more carefully...
It should be someone whos happy to meet a guy like me whos for real
& not someone full of bullshit!
Someone who can see that I do have all this love inside me
to give to her & who can be gratefull for it & love me for being me!
Cuz Im a fucking hunk, romeo, badboy in a good way
& hey Im even in shape with all my abs visible too!
LOL!
Yes I still belive in love and I still belive in happiness...
I still belive that life can be a good place to be at!
I just can`t dwell about what happened...
...I just can`t afford it anymore!
The only way is forward now into a BRIGHTER future...
My mother might be sick but she is ok RIGHT NOW
& even if I have my daughter part time six hours away from me
NO ONE can ever separate us & she is WONDERFULL &
someone who never will leave me!
LIFE GOES FUCKIN`ON!!!!
