I was just kidding man, it's messed up how you were treated. Be good to your kids man.
i treat my son great,ive never layed a finger on him,i never understood how someone can beat someone that they love,it was hard for me to understand what my dad did to me for many years after that,as i got older i forgave him and we have a great relationship today.it was the alchohol i guess,i cant imagine hurting my son whether i was drunk or not.dont get me wrong,last year he was trying to touch the stove burners and i tapped his hand very lightly,he was mad at me but i did it for his own good,i dont want him to burn himself.this is the first time in my life where i actually have someone cry for me when i leave for work,my son cries when i go to work and that keeps me going everyday and keeps me away from the cocaine and alcohol.i always clap for my son when he does something nice or says his abc,s,my sons the best thing that ever happened to me and i thank god everyday for him.the only thing that scares me is that im not exactly a big bread winner and im worried that one day he will despise me for not having alot of money,im getting my CDL this month so ill make pretty good money driving trucks,i just want to make sure i could leave him something behind when its my turn to go home to the lord,my dad was a factory worker his whole life and i never despised him for it,he provided us with food on the table,clothes on our backs and when he wasnt drinking he was the most generous man in the world,he would help anyone in need.im already teaching my son jiu jitsu at home on my wrestling mats,he has no idea what hes doin,lol, but im just letting him get used to pushing me off him and im teaching him how to fall even though he doesnt realize it,lol.i want him to be a great at bjj,even though im going to bring him to a muay thia boxing school when hes alittle older,i dont want him to be a mma fighter,even though i love mma.i just want him to compete in bjj if he wants,if he dont like it,thats cool also.maybe hell like soccer better or something and ill support whatever he does as long as hes happy and healthy and stays away from drugs cause i couldnt accept that,thanks for reading dballin247