comfort yourself with the fact that outside the world of getbig and bodybuilding everyone finds you a large muscular guy, u are what you are and be happy with what you already archieved in the gym.
this sport is playing mindgames with you all the time especially when ur fed pictures of pros and members with great genetics on a daily base.
the only benefit of "being" in the world of getbig and bodybuilding is that you keep on striving for the best you can to mentally measure yourself up to guys who actually have the genetics but are all drugs anyway. you keep the bar high for yourself that way.