So you would rather lift heavy objects than look half way decent?
you admit to your hollow vanity, prioritizing looking pretty over athletic ability. i find that almost amusing, you diet and starve yourself in the pursuit of another vein or an extra little cut on this or that muscle, but it's all smoke and mirrors. you're trying to put together a body that looks athletic but is really nothing at all.
worse still, for the 95% of your day when you wear clothing, no one even knows you work out because you're so terrified of gaining a little fat that you won't let yourself gain muscle. so at the end of the day you don't look like much more than a high school soccer player, yet put on your little posing trunks and oil and call yourself a "bodybuilder" on the internet.
so, enjoy yourself. i know i am.