I got my ass kicked in 8th grade...got kicked off basketball team...started pounded andro and lifting at the ymca
big fat fck wouldnt get outta my way in the hallway at school so I shoved him in his chest...as soon as I shoved him he just whaled up and knocked the shit outta my left eye right on the edge of my ocular cavity
shit bleed like hell.......I grabbed his fat hair and punched him as many times as I could in his back/kidney area....he was pissing blood as long as my eye was black/blue, I had to get 3 stitches too
prob the start of the whole working out thing...i was so pissed about being kicked off basketball team I just pounded out weight....I remember I got ass from some chic from the ymca while everyone else was playin shitty middle school basketball 

see...I hate fighting but love pussy
on a diff more serious note :
just read it and take it as it is .....
I had a few existences as a warrior / fighter
the 2 of the ones that resonate with my in this lifetime were in the Roman empire times and antique Greece
" Ancient Rome, 200 A.D.
As a soldier, I was sent into many battles across Europe and the near East. I was good at what I did, so I was asked to participate in the games in the Coliseum, as a fighter against captured warriors. In my first match, was defeated and the crowd demands my death — I was killed by sword.
Ancient Greece, 300 B.C.
As a wrestler, was trained to perform for the audience, which was mostly the elite. I was often hurt because was too slender. I did break many bones. Eventually, a captured foreign opponent strangles me in front of the crowd. "
These existences as many similar were extrapolated in specific programming during mind control experiments more "recent" so to speak.
Upon them specific alters were built for assasin and warrior programming to name a few
I carry this in my DNA and cellular memory implicit.
This is why I have a fear of violent confrontations and avoid them
At the same time I am a natural at fighting, strength and sports IF I access specific alters.
Currently I work on deprogramming myself as well as help others deprogram and understand the human mind.