yes, people always said i would be pro if i wasn't so scared of drugs. it wasn't fear, it was a logic based decision to not damage myself. in retrospect i was way more conservative than i needed to be.
You made the right move...Yes, loading up on grams a week of androgens, tons of GH, IGf-1, Insulin, thyroid, etc..and I believe you could have turned pro. Yes, you may have had fulfilled a dream (if indeed that was your dream) but at the same time you may have ended up a physical wreck..with kidney transplants, heart problems. Who knows what will happen to guys like Ronnie? I'd rather look like you, still have my health than risk everything and spend a fortune on drugs just to be on a Pro stage (with a big gut probably). Just feel good about yourself and what you accomplished, and be happy you still have your health..because when you spend the rest of your life feeling shitty, life isn't fun and the fact that you were a pro won't mean much.