Sometimes i think it would be good if it all ended. theres so much suffering going on in the world, and then there are still people around who says theres an all loving god 
I think there is a misunderstanding of what it means when it is said that god is "all loving." Your statement here is merely an
opinion (shared by others) of what an all loving God
should be like.
If by "all loving" we mean that God doesn't allow suffering, then that is obviously false, and always has been. IMO, we should try to attune our understanding rather than jumping to conclusions (i.e. there is no God, or god is evil, etc.).