Just got off the phone with...err, just got back from the gym - delts and tris. Still feel carb depleted.
When i was 19 i was, sadly, at my best shape. Some 13yrs later, i keep telling myself every year that this is the year when i get back into that shape. But i think i gotta sit myself down and face reality; i'm not living at home, eating, working, working out and sleeping. Throw in lower testosterone and GH levels and the giant Sisyphean bolder is slowly pushing me down.
The pisser is that everyone that doesn't know me thinks i'm in great shape, but when you hit a high, you always compare yourself to that period in time. I don't know how to train other than 100% all the time, but everynow and then i do think it'd be best to tone it down to 90% and concentrate on squeezing the muscles as opposed to powering through all sets. Maybe i should pursue quality of muscle instead of new gains?
I think part of the problem is the mindset that progress means strength progress and as a byproduct, size increase. Maybe i should judge progress by maintaining my current shape and not losing strength.
Its been some ten years that i've been trying to get back, only to always encounter some kind of stumbling block (sickness, missing meals becuase of work, etc). Two busted knees and elbows are probably a sign that i have nothing to prove by training super-heavy, but then how the hell are people in their 40s still training hard?
The crux of my dilemma is that i know exactly what to do to get in shape, but i am no longer able to do everything consistently (food, training, resting).
End of rant. (no homo)
