I get the feeling you need someone to PUSH and HELP you.
I also get the feeling you're always been the big and strong guy that never needed help with anything from anyone, and now when the tables are turned your friends still think you're that person, hell maby you still think that yourself.
But I think you would do Alot better with someone that Pushed you. Everyoen can do everything by themself (besides dancing tango) But 99% of people would want a Little bit of help somewhere down the road.
When you're trying to complete a big task by yourself, excuses are easy, because you dont have to tell the excuses to anyone besides yourself, so you an easily validate them in your own mind.
Take that uberman homo lol.
Holy shit Swede I give you huge props you are wiser than your years. It is funny when I got sick what some people emailed me or called me or put on my Facebook. Everyone I know how I never get sick. They said "Superman" doesn't get sick. I never drank alcohol (except a few times), never smoked a thing and never did drugs (except for the roids in 86'). I have always been super healthy and very hyper. I used to put myself to sleep at night while thinking about what I was going to do at the gym the next day. There would be times I am driving home and I see all the traffic and couldn't wait to get home and grab my tire and start pulling it around so people could see me. I couldn't be outside enough. When that stopped all of a sudden it hit me bigtime. I always figured nothing could get me down physically or mentally till this shit happened. Well reality hit me. That is when I get a little pissed off on here when I read when guys say shit about older BB's or people that aren't in shape like they used to be. Shit happens and there are times you just can't do what you used to do. I used to think and feel I was so strong I remember telling my friends I seriously thought if I never lifted a weight again even at 60 I would be able to bench 400. We holy shit I found out that ain't happening as easy as I thought.
When I look what happened to me and what has happened to others I feel like a huge pussy cause in reality what happened to me isn't as bad as losing a limb or having something like that. But, it has made it physically very difficult to do what I want to do. The last thing in the world I thought would happen is me getting this fat. I remember the last time I stepped onto a scale was just before I went back to Hawaii. I weighed 390. I swear to god I did not feel I gained 90 pounds. I was walking fine, felt pretty good when I wasn't sick from the monthly reactions. I didn't really notice I guess. The photo below was taken about a month or so after I got to Hawaii in 2000. I figured I weighed about 400. I got back into the gym and then got sick and this is what happened to me for next several years. Time fucking flys.
Anyway, I know I have came on here and said I have started this and that and dieting and whatever. And I did and have. But then something would happen like this shit that happened a couple months ago. It is almost like my body don't want to get back into shape. I have gone back starting to lift heavy, I always say it is better to be fat and strong than be fat and weak. If I am going to be in the gym I want to be at least the strongest. And it worked everytime until I get sick and then I have to take a couple months off again (just like this last time). So, as much as I hate to do it I am back in the gym on Monday to do just cardio some leg and ab work. I always stretch and am still very limber so I don't worry about that. I need to get rid of my gut and ass.
I am going to take some measurements and post them on here. I am not going to measure my waist or hips. I know already they are huge. I will measure my ankles, wrists, arms, legs and shoulder. I have never done this and I want to document it. As long as I am healthy and can workout I will go to the gym. I really am sick and tired of being this way. I have money coming in and I have alot of things I want to do that I can't.
I have reconnected with so many people I have not seen in 20+ years of Facebook. Quite a few girls who I either used to go out with or wanted to. I have an old girlfriend in Hawaii who owns a million dollar+ home in Portlock who I talk to almost everyday who I can tell wants to get back with me. All these people have no idea what I look like right now,. They know now I got sick and gained weight but think I lost it all. I have had two of them actually come to Vegas to see me and I made up excuses why I couldn't see them. In fact I have had several people come to Vegas to see me and I have not seen any of them except a couple. My oldest friend and a girl and her mom who I grew up with. Not many people know exactly what I look like right now. So this is a huge driving force why I want to finally be more serious and get back into shape.
Also, my biggest inspiration is my kids and grandkids. I have not seen my oldest daughter in 2 years cause I can't fly as easily as I used to. I never have been away from her this long. She is my twin. And I have not seen two of my grandkids. I want to be back in good enough shape to go to Hawaii in October. Then there is my youngest "rebel" daughter. She came here to see me a few days ago. I have spent the past few days with her. She is so awesome. And when she started crying to tell me to get back into shape that fucking killed me. So I am fucking serious this time. No more being fucking lazy and alot of things changing in the diet.
And then there is my Getbig bros. I gotta tell you no matter what goes on here this place really does get me thinking and encourages me. All the fat jokes and ragging even if I get mad it still hits me. Most of you guys are awesome and if we ever met would have a blast. I spent 40 years being the life of the party and I enjoyed that alot more than the shit going on now. So you guys do help. Even the angry posts I put about Goodrum at least gets my pulse up so I get a little cardio with that.
So thanks for all the support. I have alot of people and even companies waiting for me to get into shape, They seem to think it would be very inspirational and that something very rewarding will come out of it. So it is time. At 50 I will show that you can still lose 200 pounds on your own.
By the way I will still rag on Goodrum and occasionally TA. Even though TA can be very annoying at times he seems pretty smart (maybe not as smart as he pretends) and he at least has a good body but I still have to put him in his place.
