Guys i would first off like to thank each and everyone of you for your support. It means alot to me. I think this site had a positive impact on me in some strange way from negative reinforcement. I think the years of bashing caused me to really buckle down on myself and work hard. Guys like True Adonis (along with many others) told me years ago i had the genetics to do well in bodybuilding and that always motivated me to change. Although i no longer take part in the negative bashing and i no longer read any of it, i would like to contribute back in a positive way.
I have a very few images in my head from the show. I remember when i was in the overall line up and they were about to announce the winner looking over at last years Mr. Arkansas and thinking, "God... i hope they don't give it to me." For some reason a part of me felt like i didn't deserve the title. I remember looking over at the faces of a few competitors and seeing the scowl on their faces when announced 2nd and being able to sympathize with them because for many years i myself got announced 2nd, 3rd, or 5th. I think i started to lose my confidence a bit towards the end because i base my thoughts largely on the opinions of others. This was one of the best shows in years in my opinion. I remember seeing myself backstage and thinking how tiny and stringy i looked compared to the other competitors. I even have pictures to back that up.
I was really impressed when i saw the pictures and now i realize that i probably did have what it took to win the overall. I was 1 point away from winning the overall at this show and came in 2nd in the entire line up. This qualifies me for nationals. Right now i am currently trying to decide what i want to do with myself since i am qualified till the end of 2011. I am thinking about taking a shot at North Americans since it will be immediately after the Arkansas next year. I want to try to claim the state title once and for all.
I just want to give one shout out before i post all of these pictures and that goes to my trainer Noel Fuller. As for everyone else you guys know who you are. This is my home and will be for a long time. I love you guys!
