Are your parents still alive? If so, have you thought about how you will manage (emotionally) once they are gone?
If not, how long did it take you to emotionally recover? Do you ever really recover? One friend said his spouse “got me through it” and that he couldn’t have done it without her. Another friend said looking at his own children every day made it possible… but it still hurt after all these years. One said he felt like an orphan once his parents died. Another said even the sun seemed a little dimmer since he lost his mom.
My parents were killed in a drunk driving accident when I was a young teen and I have been an orphan ever since . I was an only child and so were they . I got emancipated @ 16 and have supported myself since then . I have been suicidal many times , and addicted to drugs so badly I can't fathom half of what I did then .
I never have been able to get "over " it , I miss them every day and holidays are the worst . I don't dwell on the loss but I never forget it for more than a few hours . You have no idea how many triggers there are during a normal day that are remindful of parents , family , etc.
My father was totally drunk and drove into a concrete barrier @ 65 MPH , there was no signs of braking or swerving to be found . People who drive after they've been drinking are the most selfish stupid people in the world .
I don't think about offing myself anymore , but I wait with anticipation to see them again .