Ok to keep this bbbing related, the other day I realized I will never place at the olympia 
So anyhow since I've turned about 21 I've became bored wth my own personal life. Is this normal or am I just depressed or something. I mean I've accepted I'll never be famous, never be on stage, I'm nothing special, I'm not entertained by my own life. So is this a normal thing. I mean I'm not miserable, I'm happily drunk, but fuck I hate my own life at the moment. But yet I love being alive, I love nature, I love everything about being alive, it's just my own existanace has become borning,
Youre only 21 .....At that age many on the Mr.O competetors didnt even know they were gonna b on that stage someday,
Who says you wont b in the Mr.O stage 10 years from now??
I mean look at this year Mr.O lineup.....anyone abusing drugs for years and leaving behind anything meaninful this world has to offer can b on stage....wether you place 15 or top six.....
the question should be Is it really worthy?
Is ok to question our existance specially when were bored.........
You dont need to be famous to be special ,besides when you become "famous" and get use to it its like if fame no longer exist,and every new friend U meet will treat U for ur fame rather for who you really are,
WOOOSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH